Mindless Chatter...

After a long time, I have come down to my native place for one of my childhood friends marriage. I met my school buddies after eons of time. It just seems like yesterday.
Though not much has changed here but you see the traces of modernization touching the town.

The first day went in chatting away to glory about the days that had passed by, our old so called
crushes, pranks, fun and the innocence thats missing in today's world. I was always the quiet one in the group. Though I have turned a new leaf over the years, surprisingly I was very quiet. I was wondering what was it that made me go quiet ignorant of the fact that I talk pretty much these days. I was the shy one in the group who was very conscious about everything starting from how i looked, talked ...etc. I was a late bloomer in terms of communication. I suddenly found myself back to square 1 after a long time. There were many things playing over my mind.
I wanted to shout out and tell that I'm not the shy Jane that they had known. I was just blank.
I am very happy for my fren who has met her soulmate after a long wait. I wish her the best of things in lives. I wanted to tell them that I really loved them and was always there for them. I want them to get all the happiness in the world. :)

In admist of all the fun & frolic, I was lost thinking about why did God have different plans for me. I had a lot of questions for HIM. I hope I get the answers. I ran into some uncomfortable
questions. Though we boast that we are racing towards a progressive society, there are still
gaps that might or might not be bridged.

I faced it with a smile...:) I gathered more courage to face up to the world and standing for myself...
Someday, I'm gonna come back more stronger and bigger for this place..................

Dear God,

Dear God,

Thanks for the new day,
Thanks for being there for me always,
Thanks for the learnings that never cease to end,
Thanks for the all the happy and sad memories,
Thanks for the little storms in life,
Thanks for teaching me to sail through them safe,
Thanks for the lovely angels that are there for me,
Thanks for keeping the faith in me,
Thanks for making me your special child,
Thanks for all the strength that I gather for you,
Thanks for making me who I am...:)

You rock God!

Lonely Thoughts!

She looked at the horizon,pondering if ever bygones can be bygones,
a life that was so full of laughter,is full of hushed miffs and tears,

a love that was the hustle bustle of life,has become memories lost in the lanes of darkness,
a friend who promised to walk with you in the journey of life,has left you withering in pain,

a hand that held you while crossing the hurdles of life,has left you on your own to jump the lines,
a shoulder that you used to rest on during moments of truth,has been replaced with the lonely walls of your home,

a smile which lit up your mornings,
has left you with smiles which shines with tears of despair,

a world that was woven around happiness,has become a shattered castle of never ending grief,
a faith that led you to tread the path of life,has become a fate full of thorns,

a life that was meaningful,has become a cross to bear......

Mister God....

I had got this book named "Mister God, This is Anna" long back but never got a chance to read it. After getting back to home after work, I happened to pick this up and started reading the preface. I found it was a really cute and innocent book..:)

"The difference from a person and an angel is easy. Most of an angel is in the inside and most of a person is on the outside."

In the rat race of madness, somewhere I believe that lives & relationships have become so complicated. The joy of keeping things simple is so beautiful.

"You see, Fynn, Mister God is different from us because he can finish things and we can't. I can't finish loving you because I shall be dead millions of years before I can finish, but Mister God can finish loving you, and so it's not the same kind of love, is it?"

There are many things which stuck me and got me thinking. Innocence and love in its purest form which is pretty elusive these days.

Since past few weeks, my frens n family had been voicing out their concerns that I am becoming detached and extra-practical :). They are used to seeing a more bubbly and no sense chatter box in me. I did realize I have built the shell all over me which might not have been necessary.I hear them and laugh it off saying that its the best bet in today's world to ensure that you are not trampled time and again.

But after reading the book, I was thinking..what the heck..why should I loose my innocence...I'm the way I'am...

I was trying to become a human forgetting the angel was in me...

I get amazed at Mister God on the subtle messages that he conveys out of nowhere..:)