The past few months have been quite hard hitting and confusing. They say you need to find “your calling” and life falls in place once you have identified it. After having done what I have been doing for the past 10 years now, I have come to the cross roads in my professional sphere. I have no idea of what my calling is or will be potentially. I oscillate between far flung areas of interest which have no co-relation whatsoever :) .
Life has been quite fulfilling professionally all along until a few months back. I feel that I am in the nowhere land now. Ironically all the management and leadership programs have not helped; I still feel that I am a novice in terms of self discovery. I have built a firm reputation in the form of the work that I have delivered yet I need to haggle around for getting a position of my choice. The “networking” drug has not been of help for me since I have fared in the lower order of this drug. It’s charted out as a development area in my own improvement plan. I tried to make few attempts but there needs to be the right forum for that. A well built car starts to rust when it is not used regularly and so is the case with the underutilized workforce. I start to realize how the pain of not doing anything relevant starts to spread across the mind. Having been on both the sides of game, it surely some food for thought on how the industry would want to address the program. Innovation is the key to the future. The path leading to utilize these resources would be crucial to the employees as well as the company. To engage and keep the morale high for these employees is important. How do we do that is the million dollar question? Most of the usual answers would be short term assignments, learnings and self driven engagement. While these high funda to-do’s are in place, yet the chains of limitations are imposed for reasons quite important. The search to find the middle ground is unexplored in the place that I wander. I hope that there is some realistic solution that is put to action. I do not have any solutions either but have worn my thinking caps and maybe I will have an eureka moment :)
I will continue to walk in this corporate jungle till I find my calling. Till few years back, I used to dream to make it to the boardroom. As I grow young, I start to realize how dreams do change. Life and its importance do change. Being there for the loved ones is of utmost importance. I do want to make it big but in something that I love doing. The mystery of my calling will enfold someday and I will take the plunge.
A picture on the magazine cover ;) or a writer on the block or maybe an entrepreneur:)
Dreams with open eyes,
I paint night and day,
Colors of happiness and success,
All in pink and blue,
As I wait for the rainbow ,
To be put up in the sky,
In celebration of life and laughter,
Will shine up from the heavens !
