Hula Hooping around Life.....

Keep it Simple Silly !

2012-02-08T00:55:00.001+05:30

Let’s keep it simple! Can't we aim a shot at it? I have been observingdifferent shades of relationships getting murkier by the day. Every otherperson has a problem in their own kingdom. It's normal in today's world is whatI get to hear. I am no saint to hand out prescriptions that has the wonder drugto cure all relationships.

There is one thing that I keep re-learning over the years. Simplicity,Honesty and a huge smile are the best partners who help you sail through this greatship called "relationship". I am sure each person has their ownlittle doses of relationship pills that have worked for them. Keeping it simplehas always worked for me. I sincerely hope that the essence and beauty ofrelationships do not sink even before we reach the end of time. Relationships in its entirety help us sail throughall the waves of life. They ought to be given a chance before we dump them and becomemechanical bots.

I am a key to your lives,

Chained by multiple views,

Drowning in suicidal trials,

Bury the hatchet for the good,

Open your eyes before I fly,

Into the realms of heavenly paradise.

Hope we enjoy the joy and colors of all our relationships at its best and worst :) Keep that smile on :)

Butterfly Away !

2012-01-17T01:08:00.001+05:30

It started as a mere caption writing hobby aimed to make my family giggle while going through the photo albums. I transitioned into noting brief anecdotes in my school notebooks. It slowly grew into a habit of expressing myself through my writing. I was the shy and quiet girl with dreams which spiraled through the universe :) The writings were generally kept to myself and discovered by chance by my dearest mom. She always encouraged me to keep going. I used to blabber that someday I will write books. A loved one use to tease that the dream will be realized with only one book being printed. I used to joke and laugh along with it at my immature dream.

In the year 2000, I was swept into the world of blogging. I loved it since I could express myself as an anonymous writer without the fear of my writing being judged. I remember being a part of the

early bloggers meet in Delhi in 2004. I met people from different walks of life who were literary gems in their own way. There came a lull and I left writing. I couldn't keep myself away and got back to blogging from 2009 onwards. The shy quiet girl has shed her cocoon away and is ready to spread her wings. I am who I am and will speak my heart. The first step is miniscule but the dream is alive. Maybe someday, I will get to it. I am happy being given an opportunity by blogadda to be a part of the Chicken Soup Series. The joy of holding the book and reading the story in printer's ink leaves me ecstatic. I continue to bask in the joys of life's small gifts. The book is all set to hit the stores soon :)

I spread my wings,

Over the clear blue sky,

I soar away with the winds,

Towards the land of my dreams :)

A handful of sunshine !

2012-01-11T23:42:00.000+05:30

Colorful Photography

I step out of the fence,

The place looks new,

Unlearning the old,

Embracing the change,

The heart and mind,

Pulling each other apart,

I tell them to keep quiet,

While I choose to paint,

The world in my colors,

With a handful of sunshine !

A year in the life of 2011

2011-12-31T17:24:00.002+05:30

Dear 2011,

Thank you for the lovely gifts that you bestowed me with in this year. I guess this is one of the years where I have absolutely no regrets. You taught me the best lessons of life. A time that was beautifully woven with memories to cherish for a lifetime.

A few tears and scars that I am letting go for the good. I remember the line from the movie Kung Fu Panda 2 "You got to let go of the stuff from past – because it just doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is what you choose to be now.” I choose to be "me" devoid of all the painful memories and looking forward for a lovely sunshine in the field of life.

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Love and friendship that's a lovely part of life...you blessed me with the best of all the worlds. Thank you :)

In my search for myself, you have set me off in the journey that is bound to be exciting with each passing day. I discover a bit of me each day and smile at life. Life and its own mysteries are beautiful. In the race to walk up the ladder, we leave ourselves behind. I will not leave me behind any more :) All kudos to you :)

I do not want to make you teary but hell am going to miss you dear 2011 :( . But I hope your sibling 2012 is as great as you :)

A new avatar awaits you dear 2012. I am betting my bottom dollar that you are sure are gonna be fun and our ride together will be awesome :D

Wishing a heartfelt adieu to 2011 and wish you all the blog walkers who stop by a happy, happier and happiest new year :)

Stay Happy :)

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Wounds of the Soul !

2011-12-13T04:06:00.001+05:30

She sits by the window,

Gazing at the dark night,

Life's lessons unlearned,

The world says its easy,

Letting go is an eternal battle,

Throwing back the memories,

Into the sea of sorrow,

With a prayer in the heart,

Let the wounds of the soul,

Be Healed forever and ever !!

Love In The Era of Concrete Jungles !

2011-11-13T01:04:00.000+05:30

Photography Graphics

A shadow that follows me all around,

A part of me entwines in the hazy illusions,

A persona that exists in the mindless thoughts,

Brings a smile in the darkest days of life,

A whimsical sentiment yet so full of love,

They co-exist in the Aladdin Land,

Oblivious to the world that lies beyond,

Lost in their land of rose tinted glasses,

Their souls agony reaches the hilt,

When she is woken up from the dream,

With a notion that it was ethereal,

A love that's sacred and pure,

In this era's concrete jungle !

When you are happy and you know it :)

2011-11-11T04:25:00.002+05:30

Cute Graphics

I was trying to change the blog skin for quite a while and finally success came through the keyboard :) I have been thinking of late that my posts have been too heavy on your minds :) The season is winter and its time to be happy so my posts are gonna flow with my mood :) Winter always makes me happy irrespective of the mood swings that conquer many a people during this time of the year. With the winter setting in through the warm rugs that are out of the closets, it's time to usher in the yuletide season :) .

It's life's testimony that all the hot sweaty stormy seasons do pass and you survive them tall and strong. A time to reflect , give thanks , make amends , dream and believe that you will have a great life and year ahead. So dream on :)

Cute Graphics

If you are happy and you know it...clap your hands :)

If you are happy and you know it...stamp your feet !

If you are happy and you know it and you really want to show it ....Shout HeeHee :D

If you are happy and you know it...show your smiles :)

If you are happy and you know it and your really want to show it....leave some smiles in the comments :)

Let happiness prevail in your lives :)

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Moments !

2011-11-04T12:31:00.002+05:30

You are the talk of the town day in and out,

Everybody wants to hold you tight in their arms,

Your eyes of life are mystically calm,

Yet nobody can see a storm brewing,

As they drown in your mesmerizing smile,

The worldly wise say that you are immortal,

Your soul is always hovering around the million hearts,

Your love can bring a dead man to life,

Yet you choose to run off to the land afar.

You come and vanish in oblivion like you never existed,

You are the beautiful enchantress in the town,

You are loved and scorned yet you are my precious !

Maa Teri Badi Yaad Aati hai !

2011-10-28T01:35:00.001+05:30

कुछ अनसुनी सी बातें

कुछ आधे सुनी,

कुछ आधे सुलझी

कभी हासते है,

कभी रुलाजाते हैं,

पर जब भी याद आतें हैं,

माँ तेरी पास चलते है,

वक़्त के पंकुदियों पे,

उड़ चली हूँ मैं ,

उन बचपन के शरारतों के साथ,

तुम्हारी प्यारी सी हसी ,

सामेने आरही है ,

बड़ते हुए कदमो के साथ,

जब में निकल पड़ी हूँ,

अपने आस्तित्व के खोज में,

माँ तेरी ममता का स्पर्श,

चूजता है मुझे,

ज़िन्दगी चाहे कितना भी आगे ले जाये,

माँ तेरी आँचल में चुप जाने का मन करता है.

ज़िन्दगी तेरे बिना अधूरी से लगती है,

कभी मोड़ के उस पार से बुलाती हो,

दिल चाहे भाग के तेरे पास आ जाऊं

तुझे आपने पास ले आऊं,

ज़िन्दगी तेरे बिना कभी खलती है,

तो कभी तेरे जैसे बन ने की प्रेरणा देजाती है,

तू हमेशा मेरे साँसों में समाये हुए रहेती है,

माँ तू मुझे बड़ी याद आती है.

जनम दिन की हार्दिक शुभ कामनाएं

A walk by the moonlight

2011-10-10T03:28:00.000+05:30

She walks by the moonlight,

Looking like as bright as a star lit sky,

They look up to her beauty and grace,

The smile that can light up the darkest night,

Her heart races through the valleys of life,

She waits for ages to meet her knight,

She runs to the shores to catch a sight,

She treads back softly without a sound,

Her imperfections stare back aloud,

Beauty bestowed stands incomplete,

She stares back at the sky looking for a respite,

With a hope that the souls shall unify under the galactic sky.

Note to Self :)

2011-10-06T02:17:00.002+05:30

Photography Quotes

The sparks that fly from the fire by rubbing two stones fuels up a bigger fire.

Well it’s a thought that has dwelt in my head for sometime now. Finding that spark that lights up the larger picture. I am totally envious of all those amazing people who have found that zest and gone after their dreams. Its indeed a blessing for them. As life’s years are passing by, unrest stirs within me to find my dream. Days are mundane and routines are catching up on me. Do I love my work? I like my work and do a decent job but the fire in the belly to go up the ladders is dying down. Is it because of the sluggishness that has shadowed my work? I am not too sure on that. I am getting to feel that my world is definitely not in the one that I am currently engrossed with day in and out. It is beyond this.

In an age of technology where you have everything at the click of a button, these are the things that cannot be answered by google :) I feel that I am a jack of all trades but master of none which can be problem :D Half baked cakes are no good however appealing they appear. I am getting into a self analytical mode which is important at this stage. There is so much to do but looks like that time is running out. In the mad race, everybody have their running shoes on and are busy in the marathon of life. I have to take off my shoes and reflect on what I want to do with myself. The passion has to be discovered. How I wish that things were easy but then I guess that challenges are important and shape you as a person. I know the path ahead will not be easy but I got to take my chances at it. As much I engulf myself in melancholia many a times but I always try to see light at the end of tunnel. I am a strong believer in giving your everything to what you want and the universe conspires to make it happen. So my search for my other road will be on till I get one and someday I want my life to reverberate on the lines of Robert Frost’s poem that is one of favorites :

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Goodbyes are not forever !

2011-09-24T00:56:00.000+05:30

Standing up to a stoic silence,
She watches the love of her life,
Lying lifeless in the casket of flowers,
Travelling back in a time warp,
She reminisces about the years gone by,
Their first glance of love,
Stepping into a life together,
They walked hand in hand,
Through the tribulations and triumphs of life,
Staying awake with their little tiny tots,
Laughing through the insane jokes,
Being there for each other without a doubt,
Sharing and Caring that lasted beyond the beat of a heart,
Now she finds herself in a void that can never be fulfilled,
A loss that is irreplaceable and irreversible,
She holds back her tears,
To uphold the promise betrothed to her beloved,
She celebrates their love that will keep growing forever and more,
She kisses goodbye with a heavy bosom,
With a longing that they will meet again near the heaven's door.

Ignorance is not always Bliss !!

2011-09-07T03:40:00.000+05:30

The school bell rang,

The chaos descended into the orderly,

With all the little ones in the line,

There was one missing,

The bright light shone through the hallway,

Her presence was like a soulful mannequin,

Waiting for her friends,

She was the docile one,

With dreams of being heard,

Her existence was fabled,

Few reaffirmed her presence,

Many a seasons passed,

Many a leaves withered,

She finds herself the same mannequin in the hallway,

Today she has a voice to go with her soul,

Yet she is still not heard,

A thousand questions run through her mind,

But she remains a silhouette and nothing more

Thus ignorance has failed the world,

For it stands bereaved,

Of not knowing her charm.

Thus the adage is not true,

For Ignorance is not always bliss !!

Growing Up as Gabriel :)

2011-09-01T04:19:00.000+05:30

I whispered "Hosanna to the Highest" in a shy manner when I was told by mum to rehearse the part in our house. I was about 3 yrs old that time. A couple of years down the line and I was still in the band of angels repeating the same lines. The tiara and the wand were cut out of shiny silver paper. I loved wearing them and enjoy it till date whenever I get a chance which is almost rare :). As I grew up , I used to haggle mama on why I never got a chance to be somebody else. Invariably, I was always the angel. In order to soothe down my stubborn nerves, she used to tell me that angels were God's favorite kids and I was one of them. I used to ask her a lot of questions. I was told that we all have guardian angel and they help us through times of despair. I felt that being an angel was a big responsibility that was bestowed on me at such a tender age. I started taking these things very seriously and tried my best to make everybody happy.

I was about 6 yrs old when I got to know that my parents marriage anniversary was around the corner. My grandma used to tease me on what would I gift them. That was huge predicament that I was faced due to the apparent shortage of funds. The other day, I could hear the scrap dealer shouting "paper dedo , paise lelo" . I ran into the house and searched for paper. During those days, we did not have newspapers being delivered at our place. I picked up the lantern and ran out. I asked him if he could take this. He took it happily and handed me over a 1 rupee coin. I tip-toed into the home feeling proud of my selling ability. I took the 1 rupee coin and went up to the nearby shop. I did not have an idea of what I wanted to buy. The shop keeper asked if I wanted the orange candies. I told him that I wanted to buy a gift for my parents and gave off the money to him. He giggled and told me that it was not enough. He told me that you should buy them a gift when you become big and start working. I came back dejected over the rejection. We used to have frequent power cuts during those days. The dusk was upon us and the power went off. My dad started searching the lantern and could not find it. He was at his wits end after searching the entire house. I got scared and ran up to him. I told him that I had sold the lantern. He got angry and shouted at me. I started crying and ran straight to my mom. Later, my mom asked me why did I do it. I replied saying that I wanted to buy a gift to make them happy. My mom started laughing and hugged me.

She taught me an important lesson in life in simple words. She told me in Oriya and obviously in a way that a 6 yr old can understand but when I try to recollect her message..it flashes in my mind as :

" Dear Mama..you are an angel but that does not mean that you can take shortcuts to happiness. Life is huge and you will have your own chances to make your near ones happy. You got to love everybody and be there for them when they need you. That's the best gift that you can give to both of us. You got to be the Gabriel wherever you can"

Well I retired as Gabriel in the play :) I know Gabriel was the "male" angel in many references but guess that's permissible :) Looking back all the years, I guess I now realize the significance of growing up as an angel. There are few who choose to ignore the angelic side and many who nurture this side. I believe that people who walk into our lives out of nowhere to bail us out are angels. I am sure that all of you would relate to this when some stranger helped you out in some unknown way. Sometimes we become the strangers and help people out. Thanks to her, I try to keep my cool in this insane maddening world where envy is a prime and anger is a terror. I ain't perfect but we got to keep trying :)

It would be wishful of me to wish that the angel in each one of us is dominant and the evil side is passive. The world would have been one happy party :D

Keep the Gabriel alive ! "Put a Little Love in your heart and the world will be a better place" :)

Distances

2011-08-18T05:42:00.002+05:30

I can hear the rain drops falling from the skies,

Yet the sky seems eons away.

The early morning chants ring in my ears,

My eyes open to the echoes from miles afar.

They walk the path of life hand in hand,

Yet their hearts pronounce a polar story.

The oasis in the desert dance in your eyes,

But you still need to chase the sight.

The mother clutches her baby to her heart,

To set it free one day for its fantasy flight.

The stars twinkle at the sight of the moon,

They lie together forever and ever.

The sea-gull soars high,

On its extra-ordinary flight to prove his might.

The angels of life step up for your fight,

Yet the faces never come forth to the light.

The beauty of the unknown mesmerizes you,

Yet the unanswered questions stirs your soul.

The strangers visit your site,

Yet they tread quietly away.

The birds fly across the deep blue oceans,

I am yet to cross but one.

Distances throw a question back at me,

Yet the mystic aura makes me smile.

The soul knows no distances,

It always knows what is right!

This is a German love song. I do not understand the language yet I like the song. It has a very rustic appeal. The English translation is as follows :

I'm going to go into the fir trees
There where I last saw her
But the evening is throwing a cloth upon the land
and upon the ways behind the edge of the forest
And the forest it is so black and empty
Woe is me, oh woe
And the birds sing no more

Without you I cannot be
Without you
With you I am alone too
Without you
Without you I count the hours without you
With you the seconds stand still
They aren't worth it

On the branches in the ditches
it's now silent and without life
And breathing becomes oh so hard for me
Woe is me, oh woe
And the birds sing no more

Without you I cannot be
Without you
With you I am alone too
Without you
Without you I count the hours without you
With you the seconds stand still
They aren't worth it without you

Enjoy the song :)

Confessions of a Shopaholic !!

2011-08-12T13:16:00.000+05:30

I'm sure the title will ring a lot of bells in many of you especially a lot of us who are from Venus :). I am no exception either :). I guess its a part of our feline characteristics that make us run towards the malls. Well, do we need a reason? I do not think so..I run towards it whenever I feel like and my purse is able to bear the brunt :)

My folks keep complaining about the waste that I incur on a frequent basis. It ain't hereditary coz I am the only one in the family who has been impacted by this madness. Well heck...I do shop but then it makes me happy (*a big grin*) :D. In my mind, there are many category of shopaholics and I fall in the "greedy" group :). Let me elucidate for the greater good :)

The Bumpers : This group waits for the big sales and ensure that they show up on Day 1 of any kind of sales. They make the most of it which keeps them happy throughout the year.

Greedy Eyes : That's me and my likes. We shop and one look is enough for us to decide if we have to pick it up or not. Our eyes are big and they run all over the shops/malls. We are the greedy lot :) just like kids in a candy store.

Foxy Beings : This group is the one who make the most of it. They have a budget and effectively ensure that there are no variances in the balance sheet. They know the right places to shop and have a list of stores that exist with the best of variety. They keep updating their repository in a timely fashion.

Haggling Group : They are the shopkeeper's worst nightmare and win their battles in a poetic fashion :). They bargain , bargain and keep bargaining. Bargaining is not bad but these are the ones who will fight for the one paise too which might not be logical in all cases.

Show Me All : These folks will have the energy to go into all the shops in the world and see everything possible under the sun yet buy a single tee if the shop is lucky :) They do end up coming home and complaining how the shops are out of stock :)

Gadget Freak-o-holics : The name says it all. These are the ones who have each and every gadget just for the love of it :) They raid the stores as soon as the new toys are out :)

Lazy Bags : This group just does not want to walk around and spend time in the tsunami malls :) They shop online for everything right from groceries to gadgets :) The cart is delivered at a click of a button.

Two Minute Shopper : Any guesses on this group :) Yay...this goes to our dear men who hate shopping to the core and generally take two minutes to decide. There are exceptions to this group as well :)

These are the ones that I have come across personally but please feel to free to add any other groups that I have missed :) Irrespective of all the other chaos that I actually possess, I love my greedy disorder :) It helps me in various ways like making me gleefully happy , burns calories , keeps my wardrobe in vogue, helps the economy , mood enhancer, keeps me energetic , helps me bond with my girl pals and keeps me my purse light :)

While shopping is fun personified for me, it can be actually problem when it borders the extremes of compulsive buying disorder. Then it definitely is a problem and people would need help. Beuler describes it
as an example of " reactive impulse" or "impulsive insanity", which he clusters with kleptomania and pyromania. Its just a watch out alert :)

Getting back to the happy part...I love my shopping...my small joys of life :D

Just for Gags :D

Happy Shopping !!! :)

Lonely Tunes!!

2011-08-11T04:04:00.004+05:30

"You come into the world alone and you go out of the world alone yet it seems to me you are more alone while living than even going and coming"- Emily Carr

Have you felt alone in a crowd? Have there been days when you had everybody around yet nobody noticed the drop that fell from your eyes? Have you felt like running away somewhere in search of your "inner peace"? Have you had tonns of mindless questions running through your mind?

I am sure you would have had your share of such days. I guess we all have our days when we want to sing the lonely tunes of life. Sometimes you feel like giving it up all and just run across to the Himalayas :). Do you turn into the Almighty seeking solace during these moments of truth? Do you feel stuck in a maze where all roads lead to cross-roads? Do you shut yourself off trying to find the answers which might not exist?

I do the mindless thinking :) most of the times during such phases. Sometimes I find my own answers and sometimes I keep wondering. Its amazing that I have tonns of friends who remember me during their times of need yet very few who can relate to my chaos :) I have a lovely family yet they are ignorant of the other me. I guess its me to be blamed, coz' in my journey of being self sufficient, I have walked off leaving everybody behind. Is that good or bad? Well I'm sure you will have your own views :) I have everything going for me yet there is an emptiness that cannot be defined. No, its not because of past. Past is a part of us and we cannot change it. It's the search for something eternal and pure thats lost in the cat race :) Yes, its the cat race where they keep fighting with each other for no sane reason. Well I need to figure out what it is ....:) Its not the ususal suspects like love....work etc..:) Its beyond me :)

We are born and raised with lots of love by our parents. Their lives are filled with nurturing us to be the best. There are times when we have to fly off to distant lands in the search of greener pastures. Sometimes we have a choice not to go and stay on. There are times when we have to take the road ahead to keep them safe and sound. We provide them with all that they need except our company. They spend their lives with such a lot of humdrum and yet the last leg sometimes is very lonely. I wonder why do we have to grow up. Life was simple and easy as kids. All that I cared for was my homework and holidays. Running after butterflies and kites was something I loved :) apart from fighting with my lil bro who is again grown up and needs his space. I so wish I could do a rewind and tell mom how much I love her. :) Well my incessant cacophony of thoughts can run into pages :)

Emily nails it down so nicely in her quote above that we are lonely when we are living. Those lines are profound. Everybody feels this way someday or the other :) My two strings of heart says ....

I smile at them when they ask what makes you sad,

I tell them you got to be a soothsayer to nail that,

They laugh at me wondering how naive a joke it was,

I smile back knowing that it was a fact,

They are the ones who will hold me when I fall back,

I smile at myself and my luck for having them around me,

Yet when my heart falls into the oceans of lost despair,

I find myself staring at the horizons of hope that hardly exists :)

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Life , Lemons and Crayons!

2011-08-09T03:44:00.000+05:30

Life as we know it is supposed to eons of years together where you are expected to be happy, sad and responsible. Wake up ! Is it all that is life supposed to be ? Well not to sound to dramatic but a few lines from a great person shook me up. Am I living the life that I am supposed to be ? Am I a mere figment of imagination ?

Well coming to reality, I do exist :) Life has been a refreshing act of surprises with a few drops of lemon here n there :)

Running after insane deadlines and lost in a world which is not yours. The goal ahead is foggy but hope that air clears soon enough.

Do you think that I should go by the picture and start making crayons of various hues in life :)

Hoping to discover myself more :)

Song of Life !

2011-07-06T05:30:00.000+05:30

The song of life runs on a perfect track,

The smiles reaches out to a million hearts,

Pockets of happiness are strewn around,

Life is drawn out from a fairy like tale,

The stem of your existence springs forth,

Life in its ethereal form :)

Seesaw!

2011-06-15T03:54:00.000+05:30

I sit and it goes up,

I go up and it comes down,

Both the ends are a part of me,

I try to take care of one,

The other calls out for help,

I got to run,

All I need is peace,

Balancing is not merely an act,

Life is indeed a seesaw !

I definitely do not want to end up like the picture above :) Hope the madness slows down..Does it ever go away ? :)

HEAR ME OUT !

2011-06-10T04:51:00.000+05:30

She looked around the room just to find walls staring at her. The silence was killing her. There was nobody to hear her out. She tried calling her friends but unfortunately was not able to get across to anybody. The pain and loss of a loved one had shaken her up. She went and gulped it all. All that was left was a blank note on which she was trying to scribble her feelings. She wanted to be heard and not judged. She wanted somebody to listen to her and help her get out of this sadness.

Well...I am sure this is not just another story. It has struck some of our loved ones. Some were lucky to survive but some just left us sad and helpless. You can do your bit by spreading awareness across your friends and family. Tell them to spread the word just to one person. Maybe like the man who was throwing back the starfish into the sea and made the difference. Each one of us will make a difference in spreading the word about "SAHAI". The number of suicide rates across the country. I really wish that people realized that life is so priceless and we should not give up so easily. All they need is the support of the loved ones. Many a times people drive themselves to death because of guilt or fear that shakes their souls from within. I have personally seen my loved one trying to take this route and the agony that the family goes through is insurmountable. I have been lucky to get back my loved one and wish that each person uses this helpline during those dark hours. They are truly comparable to angels who are helping drive people out of the dark phases of life.

More about SAHAI...

Activity: SAHAI is Bangalore's telephone helpline for people in emotional distress. Our dedicated, trained volunteer counsellors are available to answer your calls between 10.00 a.m. & 6.00 p.m., from Monday through to Saturday.

All calls are confidential and privacy is assured.

Whether it is facing problems with your family, in school, at work or with your friends,Sahai Counsellors will give you their undivided attention and will guide you. And, when you're ready, SAHAI will help you find a long-term solution to your problems, through telephone counselling.Sahai volunteers will help and equip you with the skills,needed to cope with distressing situations of life like loss, failure, broken relationships or the ever-increasing demands of today's fast-paced life.

SAHAI volunteers are homemakers, professionals and college students - people from all walks of life who are committed to saving lives. SAHAI volunteers undergo 30 hours of suicide prevention training conducted by professionals from NIMHANS and the Medico Pastoral Association, along with Rotary Bangalore East, three of the help line's founding partners.

Volunteers are trained to help each caller ventilate, to respond without judging, and to guide the caller to address their problem. Volunteers learn how to listen pro-actively, and to recognize and assess signs of stress and depression.
Details: Indias first suicide prevention helpline we are pioneers in telephone counselling in Bangalore.
Support: Suicide prevention and emotional distress telephone helpline.
Note: Public awareness, more volunteers and funds to raise awareness.
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Too much of tech is evil !! :)

2011-06-08T02:49:00.000+05:30

Its been quite a long time since I held my pen :) Well its been very quiet in terms of life...I guess I was just basking in the glory of the new found life :) and got too lazy to login.

The fact is that I was checking on my blog pretty often, thanks to the latest entrant in life. Its pretty handy to use and you use the lappie only if you have to work :). I am sure its a no brainer...therez a new phone in life that has made me a bag of lazy bones if not anything else. I have been thinking to write a couple of posts which have been there on my mind but kept postponing it. Its so very true that technology is a necessary evil.
Life has become virtual all of a sudden where a call is being replaced by FB messages. An open invitation has the power to create chaos and hurt people. People kill themselves online. Its a mixed bag....

Getting back to the point, I think I need to get back to my neglected lappie and start boring you folks :)

Cya soon...

A Mother's Plight

2011-05-20T02:46:00.000+05:30

This is dedicated to someone dear to me and hope all prayers are answered as it is a tough fight ahead..

A tear drops from her moist eyes,

She looks yonder in despair,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

The waves of venality have hit her home,
Her young boy has been framed in hideous plans,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

The mother's life is at stake,
The fear of the corrupt shakes her from within,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

She knocks on all doors crying for help,
They hear no one and fear none,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

All they understand is the language of power,
Knows not she what to do,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

Life in the reels has transformed into real,
How I wish that this is only surreal,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

I look upon Thee to bless her
With strength of millions to fight the demons,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

Hopes and prayers for her little boy's life,
To be spared from the chambers of devils,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

Faith will get her through,
Victory of the righteous is not far,
A mother's plight pains my heart.

Legally Blonde !

2011-05-14T04:19:00.003+05:30

My opinion on lawyers having it easy is definitely open for change post the legal week that I endured with success. Kudos to me :)

No, I wasn't fighting any cases nor was a prey to any legal hassles :). I was working my back side off to get some corporate contracts accomplished and it ain't a happy and clean job. The way words are spun around to ensure the parties involved have their grounds covered and derive the maximum benefit is pretty thought provoking. I am sure the contracts that involve beginnings are relatively saner than the ones who are parting ways. Coming back to my POV on folks employed in legal professions especially in the big bad corporate world, am sure it must be a pretty tough job. Well that doesn't discount the fact that other jobs including mine are any easy. Its like understanding the Chinese whisper and putting that into robust
documentation which will bail out everybody in times of despair. Everything resolves around the words that are written on the rock :) It was a good exposure for me to step into the other side of the world and I sincerely wish it was just a peek a boo for me and not more :) The impacted party can invoke the termination for convenience clause if the resource utilization is more than 5 days :)

Legally Blonde sounds so much better as a great watch rather than anything else :)

PS: The opinions expressed in the post are devoid of any legal perspectives. If you want to sue me, do it in English not legal :)

Mum...my mamma

2011-05-07T10:05:00.000+05:30

I was in deep thoughts as to what should be my post all about this mother's day. As an ode to my mumma, I try n pen few lines in memory of her every year. Till date, my post has been all about poems signifying the importance she has been weaving in our lives. Today as life stands still in the paranoia of absence that calls out loud, I am feeling an emptiness that cannot be filled out with the greatest of things in life. Being through this utterly happy and equally challenging journey of life, I realize that I AM nothing but a shadow of this woman whose only solace was an aim to fill lives of our near and dear ones with love and cares. She did not see who that other person was, if it was a close relative or a distant someone whom we did not see much. Her greatest smile was when she saw a near one happy and content. I often looked at her and thought if it was possible to be that content seeing someone else so happy. I used to chide her to focus on her offspring rather than people who might not be there tomorrow for her. She used reply saying that life is nothing but a mirage where everything that we think is nothing but an illusion. She used to tell me that follow your heart and rest will fall in place. There was a time when I used to be all about ME and nothing else. Mamma used to tell me -"Dear daughter, look beyond yourself. Her eternal crib used to be that I was more close to my dad than her and for some strange reason, she used to believe that I didn't care for her enough.

Today after 4 years, I look up there and whisper into her ears that "Mamma ...do you realize that life is nothing yonder you...there is not a single moment that I do not think about you..life is all about you and trying to be you...Mama...I know you are right here....

and hope that you are trying to take pride in your little daughter who is trying to put on the saree and look like you"...

With the lengths of distance that cannot be traversed easily, I wonder sometimes why you do not visit me in dreams. There are days when I try to please HIM just that you can visit me in the sleepy world. I get all happy when you pay a visit to me. But as the frequency of your visits come down, I realize that you have transported me from being the lonely sad soul that I used to be to an happy bubbly girl full of life. You showed me that the power of a mother's love transcends all the boundaries for the little one in trouble. Thanks for being there Ma.

As days pass by, my dear mother ...I realize that I am nothing but just a shadow of you who was content being identified as the naive,lovely and caring mama :) Words are not enough to express how much we miss you and love you.

Her tiny fingers clutched her caring soft hands,

And looked from behind the world,

Her hand was always there around her,

Her little daughter put on her make-up,

She was trying to be her,

She smiled looking at her little angel,

Her eyes were full of love and pride,

The girl who grew up in her mother's womb,

Stepped out into the world unknown,

She knew what was going on with just a hello,

The little girl wondered how could she know,

Life became busy and the visits became shorter,

She used to wait for her to come home,

On a dreary summer night, the angels came to take her,

She peeps from heavens and looks at her little ones,

Someday she will travel up there,

To make up for all the lost time.

Wake Me Not !

2011-05-05T00:20:00.002+05:30

I am lost in the mystique mountains,

Glazing at the moonless nights,

With an umbrella of stars near and far,

Laying in your arms so tight,

Weaving dreams of love and laughter,

Oblivion of the world that lies hither,

Your caress makes me careless,

Minds free of the worldly matters,

Love flowing like the endless stream,

Wake me not from this beautiful dream !

A New Dawn

2011-04-20T23:57:00.002+05:30

Her eyes are gleaming with stars,

She knows not dreams are for real,

Everything seems surreal,

Life and its gifts are eternal,

Sometimes it may seem hard,

But life springs back from the dark,

With hopes and smiles of a fairy tale,

She has found her lost shoe,

As a new dawn awaits this day.

One Lazy Afternoon.

2011-04-14T03:36:00.000+05:30

I wandered in the green meadows to breathe in some energy and life. My friends and me were enjoying the

lovely fields running across here and there. Life was a cakewalk with few people around and tonnes of fresh

air. I travelled from one village to another searching for the better pastures.

Traversing through the boundaries that each state entails, I landed up in a place full of people. I could hear people honking at each other and running in a marathon of life. There were big things that took people from one place to another. I wanted to jump in but the entry was not easy. I looked at them bewildered and they smiled back at me. I thought they might have one for folks like us and waited at the stop.

I wandered off into another field seeing the thing taking a shower. I looked around but found no one. I ran back to the stop in the sultry weather. I was all tired waiting for it. My friends joined back wanting to take a nap in this lazy afternoon. We found a spot in one corner of the place called the highway. They all looked enviously as we lazed around chatting sheepishly :)

Life is one lazy afternoon...we need to find our cozy corner and try to relax ,it does help :D

PS: This post is dedicated to the 3 cows who were sitting happily in the afternoon under one flyover in the highway blissfully unaware of the place and least bothered about the blaring horns. :)

Tinker Bells :)

2011-04-09T03:06:00.000+05:30

Life has picked up momentum in preparation for the big day thats coming up. To paint your dreams into a lovely picture is a bag of mixed emotions in real life. The excitement is different for sure :)

The question that pops up inadvertently from all almost everybody is how are you feeling. I smile back at them and tell them that the feeling is yet to sink in :). I have butterflies tickling me away along with the green eyed monsters trying to throw me off my feet. The fairies all around tell me that its gonna be great. Its a big leap of faith forward in life for the good.

The halo around me is pretty visible :) as I wait for my prince in shining armour to ride me away. Yes its tinker bells around me saying that they are waiting to welcome me into their fairy land :)

Random Ramblings !

2011-04-05T04:52:00.002+05:30

Standing at the edifice of buried memories,

A feeling blank yet painful haunts her back,

Memories that were wrapped up in quiet sobs,

Have been brought back to life,

A life that was once the sweetest of grapes,

Could not have gone so sour,

A friend whom she called my own,

Stabbed in her back,

Little did she know that jokes of his first crush,

could come back like a boomerang,

To crash the home that was like a castle in the air,

Love in its myriad forms,

Shares hopes for a better tomorrow to one,

Yet snatches away the peace within from the other,

The journey during the rocky times,

Can be easily foregone for a rosy future,

How relationships transform with the blink of an eye,

Knows she not how to erase this from the sands of time,

If only she could once turn back time,

To ask him for the last time,

Why was she the chosen one ?
Will she get the response,
Is a question beyond oblivion,
Yet she believes that this too shall pass,
With rosy dreams for a wonderful tomorrow,
That lies ahead.

PS: This was just a random post with no semblance to anybody alive or dead :) Trying my luck at some asymmetric poetry :D

Feeling Foolish !

2011-04-01T02:56:00.000+05:30

Yes..you got it right :) I am feeling very foolish today. Well now the billion dollar question is why the foolish feeling ???

The whole hullabaloo during our childhood days was amazing. I have been always one of the favorites and easy catch for my friends on this day. I had my share of fun when I used to trouble Mama dearest with a fake earthworm. She used to jump at the sight of it. Sending blank letters to friends...packing gifts with absurd things :). I guess the jokes have also advanced with the progressive world.

Nevertheless, the feeling is awesome reminiscing about the good old days.

I am gonna try and get some of my old chums :) Hope you all enjoy the day :D

Chak De India !

2011-03-31T03:45:00.000+05:30

With all due credit to my cricket crazy fiancée, I have travelled quite a distance in this road full of bats and balls :) Yay....India had stopped today and our team held the flag high. The bond that binds all Indians and our neighbours alike around the globe is this game of cricket. The saying that "cricket is a religion and Sachin is a God" was crystal clear seeing the euphoria and madness around every nook and corner of the country.

We have etched our names in history. The atmosphere is vibrant and I can see smiles all around me :)

Chak De India ! Bring back the cup. Let history repeat itself ! :)

An ocean of smiles

2011-03-27T23:37:00.000+05:30

Today was a great day. I had been to an orphanage nearby to spend some time with the kids. Though I have been to an old age home but travelling to a home full of kids was quite an enriching experience. As soon as I reached there, I was greeted with curious kids and lots of smiles.

There were about 25-30 kids who were taken into shelter by a noble man who runs this home. There were kids of different ages but the enthusiasm in them was amazing and common. During my few hours, I hardly saw someone who was sad. They were full of hope and positivity. We started playing few games and they were trying to encourage each other to play. When a second game started, I saw the few elder guys sending the folks who did not get a chance to play. The youngest one aged 3 years agreed to come into my arms easily without any conditions :)

They might not be fortunate to be in a family but the fact that they have become each others support system is very heartening . I was just sitting and watching them play so carelessly. Few kids came and hugged me. It was truly a jaadu ki jhapi and in its purest form :) I was actually engrossed and feeling sorry that such lovely kids had no family around. I was in Q&A with God asking him why such lovely kids were deprived of parents.

It suddenly dawned on me that these folks were happy and full of smiles irrespective of their circumstances in life. They probably draw their initial basic values which are loving one another, giving , sharing , caring from these circumstances and will surely carry it for life. They carry an ocean of smiles and maybe few tears here and there. I hope and pray that these kids will be successful someday. I pray that God blesses them with all the support that they need in life.

They reiterated one of the greatest lessons...life is nothing but an ocean of smiles and you choose to run around the problems with a smile or sit sulking about your problems :)

Clinical Vs Emotional

2011-03-25T03:52:00.004+05:30

A certain incident at work has triggered a debate within myself. While I completely agree that one has to avoid being too sensitive at work and try to take all the trials n tribulations of in your stride, yet there are certain unanswered questions. I am not subscribing to be an emotional achar but still can take care not to kill your basic etiquette.

A not so great conversation with the senior management turned out to be an emotional turmoil within myself while the other person involved was pretty curt. A well wisher advised me that if you want to climb up the corporate ladder than you have to learn to detach yourself and not get impacted. I am definitely not the tear-jerking types where my eyes start welling up at each and every discussion. When somebody whom you respect talks otherwise, I do get worked up as the person involved is somebody whom I have always held in high esteem.

Its not an easy job managing young people who have stepped out of their colleges to make a career with us. The dynamics have changed, you can't be a big boss always and need to be someone they can open up to and yet have the same respect. Is it possible to do that by being devoid of emotions?

My personal opinion is that people are your greatest assets and if you are not emotional about certain things, you will always remain a boss to them. I have seen great leaders who were pretty composed about life threatening situations and yet managed not to show their ire on their sub-ordinates. Is it too much to ask in today's world? I do not know if people find that its cool to be clinical.

Everyone has a right to express their discontent but there is way to put things in the right perspective. When you start expecting such basic things, your maturity is questioned. It seems that if somebody is emotional about certain things, then they are not mature enough to handle.

Yes, I choose not to loose my emotional quotient in this bloody corporate world. If something hurts me, I will let the other person know about my feelings. I choose not to sulk within and indulge in petty politics to satisfy my so called ego. Yes...I would rather be called an emotional fool than a scrupulous person. I will do my bit to ensure that people do not loose faith in such tough times and growth is not measured by how emotional or clinical one is but by the quality of the work that one does.

Yes..I choose to remain a human. I guess robots will not be as clinical people can be :p

PS: The views expressed in this post are completely mine and do not intend to hurt anyone. I respect the fact each person will have their own perspective :)

A New Life..!!

2011-03-23T03:48:00.001+05:30

He tread softly on a stormy day,

With lots of struggles that the path entailed.

He held on my hand,

During toughest of times without a sigh.

He made me smile,

With his jestful antics during the rocky times.

He showered his love,

With selfless thoughts,devoid of conditions.

He wiped my tears,

During all the long years with heart full of prayers.

He stood by my side,

With no fear of the worldly butchers.

He made me stand up,

With a faith that broken bridges of life will be rebuild.

He is an epitome of patience,

During all the swinging changes of my moods.

He brought me back,

With all his love from the deadly shallows of life.

He is no one but my new life :)

Life and HIS Blessings in its fullest form :)

Dream On..:)

2011-03-16T14:32:00.000+05:30

As a child, I always thought that dreams were meant to be seen with closed eyes. I always wanted to pursue my management degree after grad school but the other pastures allured me into their womb. I got sucked into the humdrum of the corporate life with no time left for anything. One lousy afternoon, an email popped stating that my office was launching an executive education course in business management from IIMA and there was an entrance test. My eyes twinkled at the thought of getting a chance to pursue my dream. While I was super excited at the thought of drawing wells of knowledge from the professors, the thought of the test was pretty scary. I had been out of touch with books related to studies. I pulled myself together and wrote the test with little hope that I would get through the 100 questions. :)

To my surprise, I got an email that I was among the lucky folks who made it. Our induction was at the campus and the whole process shook me up from my present. The pedagogy followed was different. The learning had to be derived using your own intellect and the professors would facilitate. We burnt numerous midnight oils working through the cases and arriving at strategies cutting across different verticals of the industries. The whole learning has been enriching and a different experience in the past 1 year. Time just flew by and the hunger for learning still continues.

As I walked up to the podium on my convocation, I was laughing to myself saying that " Dreams do come true and we should never stop dreaming" :)

A Prayer..

2011-03-12T03:20:00.001+05:30

The news, sight and thought of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan has been very disturbing. Nature's fury unleashed in full throttle. Life is indeed short and we know not what will become of us tomorrow.

A heartfelt prayer that God gives strength to the families who have lost their loved ones and sail through this difficult time. A feeling that's not very good. There is unrest, destruction and strife all over the globe.

All of us can do our bit to help the victims. Please do your bit in whatever form you can. Keep them in your prayers. The power of prayer is stronger than any tsunami and millions of prayer reaching HIM will surely help in getting things slowly back to normalcy if not anything else.

The Climb !

2011-03-08T13:30:00.000+05:30

Yes, its the climb that's always is knocking at our doors. A woman has to traverse through different mountains through out her life and make it count each day.

The climb starts right from the day we are born. For all the lucky girls like me, the younger years are happy and carefree. Thanks to our parents who have always been proud to have a girl. Well life is not completely fair, there are places where female infanticide is still prevalent and a girl baby is considered to be unlucky. There are some strong girls who fight for their rights since the younger years and some who give it up easily.

The next stop is following your dreams. I ponder if everybody gets a chance or has the strength to keep chasing them till they achieve it. If I look around me, there are again few girls who have gone out and grabbed it. There are girls who are exceptionally talented but choose to let their dreams sleep as they think that its not for them. Wish I could whisper into their ears some magic and let them know that nothing is impossible.

We girls then graduate to being a wife or mother. An epitome of love, care, patience, understanding, strength is what we get to see in this phase. There are two sides to this coin as well as always is the case. The women manage work, home and kids in an incredible manner. They are wide awake from morning preparing their little ones for school then rush to work and again back to home for the family. I used to see my mom juggle between all the 3 spheres amazingly. I still dread the thought on how will I manage when I get to that situation :). But I guess, time will teach me how to go about it :) . So there are girls who lead a blessed life and there are few who face the brunt of abuse, domestic violence yet choose to be silent. There are some people who fight for themselves and its always an "uphill battle". I have seen women who have not raised their voice against the abuse for the sake of their children and quietly sacrificed their happiness. It does get tough when there are small kids involved. I have a different opinion but not gonna pen in this post. Nevertheless, its an unending climb.

The penultimate stage when the kids are all settled and happy with their lives. They are busy taking care of their grand children and spending their times with the family happily. If the kids do not stay nearby, they either

keep waiting for the holidays or choose to spend their time keeping themselves engaged. The climb in this stage is trying to accept the fact that she has a lot of time at hand and yet nothing much to do. The climb is fighting the loneliness in some unfortunate cases where she is all alone. The climb is to keep her self happy and keep walking.

"There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb"

Happy Women's Day to all the lovely women out there :)

Lost Yet Won

2011-03-06T01:32:00.001+05:30

While I was rattling my brains to think of an apt event in history that left an impression in the minds of the people and historians. One of the great wars that India witnessed was the greatest war of Kalinga.

Kalinga was one of the biggest and prosperous kingdoms in the ancient India. It had everything that drew attention of the big guys in the region. It had a vast fertile plateau and great sea links covering a major part of the eastern India. Thus making it one of the sought after kingdoms in India due to both the location and the economic gains via the trading links. Kalinga while under the Magadha dynasty was under the Nanda rule. It broke its shackles to freedom when the Mauryas took over. It was great loss of the three Ps(Prestige, Power, Politics) for both the Magadhas and Mauryas.

The Cholas and Kalingas were strong forces who stood together in good and bad times. This helped ward off many of the forces of the other kingdoms who wanted to conquer Kalinga. Bindusara who was the ruler of the Mauryas lost the war that he waged to take over Kalinga. When Bindusara expired, Ashoka took over the throne and established himself as the King. His first aim was to invade Kalinga.

He declared war against Kalinga in 261 BC. This was Ashoka's first battle and meant a lot in terms of setting the ground for the future to come. The war was a blood bath with Kalinga completely destroyed beyond belief. There were thousands of deaths and the river which was known as the Daya Nadi was nothing but a strong stream of blood. The erstwhile rich kingdom was left with nothing but widows of the soldiers who fought the battles, orphans and homeless people. The war did no good to anybody but had a great impact on Ashoka. Ashoka was moved by the sight of the war and took an oath never to venture into such a territory. He turned to Buddhism. The remnants of the war still exist in the Dhauli hill where the war was fought.

It’s in the history of mankind where such a transformation took place when a cruel war turned a King into a saint. The Great Ashoka was human enough to realise the pain and destruction does not do any good to greater mankind. It’s my personal opinion that the war and its impact still lingers somewhere in the air of Kalinga now Odisha. A hope that such wars should never have a replay and the world should learn its lessons.

Upcoming Reorganization Changes to the Weekend!

2011-03-05T03:06:00.000+05:30

5th March 2011 Circa (EarthView Reporters) :

The top management of Earth met in the COG (council of Gods) yesterday to discuss the reorganization of weekends and also the to discuss the lawsuit filed by Miss Giggles on the weeks that never ends. The decision taken by the COG will determine the future of millions of earthlings residing on the planet earth. In the recent years, there has been numerous pleas to reorganize the weekends and add Friday, Monday to Saturday and Sunday who currently manage most of the leisure activities. There has been reports of casualties where sad people who have been driven to classes and work over the weekend. The atrocities have been happening for a while and the earth goverments had chosen to ignore these incidents.

Miss Giggles had been fighting for this since her early days and finally got an audience with Mister God yesterday. Mister God has assured that the reorganization will be completed as soon as the Board of Planets agree to the changes.

Finally Mister God addresses the earthlings :

" My dear earthlings, you have to hang on and attend your classes. I am working with COG to change the policy which will be rolled out soon. However, there will be few exceptions. The earthlings eligible for this policy need to complete 50 years of life with us".

Miss Giggles had no choice but to go and classes tomorrow. She needs to wait for few decades to enjoy the changes. Nevertheless, atleast there are people who would be enjoying their weekends :)

Oh What a Wonderful World....is it?

2011-03-03T02:46:00.008+05:30

My journey into this world was filled with love and warmth. My mother's womb had all that was required for a happy existence and to top it up, I could feel the happiness around me all the time :). I came out and was
busy enjoying the attention and care from my family and friends. Wow...I was talking to myself and humming
my favourite song "What a wonderful world".
Life started inching ahead with me being able to run around the home and parks with friends of my age. I loved riding the tricycle around our neighbourhood. My dad n mom got me admitted to the school. I loved colours and play dough. Life was heavenly with mom's noodles and cartoons to keep me busy all the way. Mom told me that we should thank and pray to God every day. I had a big birthday bash with lots of fun and frolic when I turned 5. Dad and me used to play hide and seek when he got home early. Sundays were family picnic time. We used to go out and play till dusk.
Today when I peep through the window, I can see fires and peoples walking down the streets. I am very scared. Dad has not returned home since a week. Mommy has been crying all through the day. There is
no one at home to take care of us. I cannot go to play with my friends because mommy asked me not to go there. My school bus has not come to our home to pick me up. I hear loud noises from the outside. I run back to under the bed. Mommy told me to talk to God when I feel scared and He will take care of me.

"Dear God..Please take care of mommy, daddy and me. Can I come near you? Mommy says that the place where you live is full of children and we can play all the time. Please come and get all of us to you. "

I'm sure these thoughts will be resonating back to God from all the places where there has been unrest. How I wish that the world was the lovely picture that is painted in all story books. A few heartless people cause
grave impact to humanity and the larger world. There are things beyond the lust of power, politics and money.

I sincerely hope that we get to sing "Oh What a Wonderful World" in its true sense..!!

Little Miss Giggles !!!

2011-03-01T12:30:00.000+05:30

The sound of the birdies chirping makes me giggle,

The smiling babies makes me giggle,

The mindless chatter with friends makes me giggle,

The reaction to my sometimes dumb questions makes me giggle,

The parking adventures at work makes me giggle,

The love radiating from family and friends makes me giggle,
The feeling of dreams being manifested makes me giggle,
Aye...its me who giggles away at life :)

The post may not make absolute sense but I was busy giggling seeing my story getting selected for the Chicken Soup Series which drove me to giggle a post :)

Sting in my heart.

2011-02-23T03:29:00.001+05:30

Thoughts of a distant past keep stinging my heart,
The love once sworn has broken apart,
Yet the memories of times spent together keeps haunting my heart,
A lifetime of love were promises that has fallen apart,
  The unanswered questions of your doings still hurts,
  I choose not to travel back yet the sanddunes of memories draws me forth,
The day you chose to walk away with your new found love stings my heart,
   I wish you a lifetime of happiness yet my heart pains a lot,
   The love which was once a dream come true has become a sting in my heart.

Food and Dadda :)

2011-02-22T01:41:00.000+05:30

I got back from my quick weekend trip back home. Its always so soothing to go back to your roots and come back refreshed for the months ahead.

I always remember my hometown as a sleepy little town whose people love eating :) My trip was to celebrate my dad's 60th birthday. I was always a daddy's girl and wanted to surprise him on his birthday.
Dad and Food are synonymous for me :) Well I remember my childhood days when Dad used come for the
Christmas holidays and it was one joyous food festival. I really get amazed to see how food plays a pivotal role in his life. My dad always enjoys his food and the best of chefs do not manage to score high on his list.
He keeps setting his bar pretty high. I just love the way, he is focused during lunches/dinners.

My dad is a very simple no nonsense man who stuns us with his funny and witty one liners which leave us cracking in peals of laughter...:) On a serious note, the one thing that I remember of him,which keeps me
grounded is related to food. When I was about 11 yrs old, he was having a conversation with his friend.
His friend was telling him that he can really do well for himself in his job. My dad replied very casually that
I can feed my family with rice,dal and alu chokha (its an Oriya delicacy) which is enough for us. Today
when I reflect back, it makes a lot of sense. Though we did not have a lavish upbringing, I am proud
of my dad's values and how we have inculcated it. Dad was into the rural development NGO but he
did not choose the path of dishonesty and malpractice.

Even today as I was sitting with him and saw him enjoying the buffet, I was smiling to myself that he knows to be content with what he has and the smile on his face was priceless. :)

Everyone have their small joys of life and its food for my dadda. :) This one is for my Dadda...

You smiled and picked up a morsel,
You faced all adversities with a moral,
You stood by your loved ones without any quarrel,
You made us humans with high ideals,
Life without you would have been an empty barrel.

My Dadda Strongest :)

I want to be a cat woman :)

2011-02-16T04:20:00.001+05:30

Today was a disgusting day at work. When I started my career, I was thrilled and super ready to work my ass off to reach a certain stability in career. Now when I have reached at an important point in my journey, it all feels whimsical. Everything is an illusion. The grass always looks greener on the other side :)

Being in the industry for some time now, I understand the importance of being on top of your game, but not at the cost of being dictated what to do and what not to do. I really need to shed off the ever smiling and humble persona that I nurture and transform into a cat woman. Yeah baby...there are many out there who are stomping ahead.

The bottom line is how do I undergo the sea of change from a self proclaimed angel to a cat woman :) meeeowww

Any Thoughts ;)

Lowwweee in the Air

2011-02-15T03:26:00.000+05:30

Its lowweee all over in the air :) Valentine's day which has found its own spot in our day to day lives. For a change, I was not all hyped up about 14th Feb. Well not sure if its the age just showing up or is that my definition of love is not confined to a single day. If I turn back the pages of my life a few years ago, I would have loved to be wooed away on a romantic date. Things and perspectives change and as they say "change is the only constant". I guess have graduated to the next level or at least would like to believe so :).

Being the infamous Facebook addict that I am, I restrained myself from posting anything yesterday. It was pretty interesting to see friends and family professing and thanking their loved ones. I am happy for the folks who have found their soul mates and for the ones who are in run of finding someone :)

I am sure that yesterday would have been a super bumper day for all retail outlets. I was trying to book a table on Saturday but it was quite surprising that all tables were running full for the entire week. I am happy that the otherwise busy workaholic husbands/boyfriends/fathers are trying to spend their time with loved ones. Well before you jump at me with a growl :), I am not discounting the fact that there are quite a few people who on the contrary make it a point to spend time over weekends with their loved ones.

I think we need to have more such days so that people who otherwise are busy in the mad rat race spend some time with their loved ones. Well at the end of the day, I am romantic at heart and anything to do with love is sweet music :) There is always light at the end of tunnel.

For all the love birds, my favorite quote from the Bible :

“Love is patient; love is kind
and envies no one.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
never selfish, not quick to take offense.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith,
its hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things
that last forever: faith, hope, and love;
but the greatest of them all is love.”

Let there be love all around :)

Higgledy-Piggledy

2011-02-09T02:50:00.000+05:30

Today has been a pretty mixed up day with different things running on mind and taking priority. Life was so simple back when we were kids and did not have to worry about the difference between right vs wrong.

Sometimes in the tryst of being on the right side, we end up doing things which we regret later. I wish people

understood that they cannot get away stirring up a boiling pot of water and act as if it was grabbed from a

refrigerator. I seriously wish that the person who is ready to give up things in life for a wrong purpose goes

on the right path for good. I do not know if my talking has helped but I sincerely hope that things work

out for the good.

I also wish that the person who has been getting on the wrong side of me understands and values the meaning

of relationships. Everything cannot always be hanky panky. I wish such people feel sincerely for someone and that someone acts wishy washy with them. I so wish that person sees the real me and regrets for hurting me in such a way. Sometimes lives greatest lessons are learnt the hard way.

I so wish things just become clear instead of getting hazy when the sun is about to shine in life...!!

What will you become when you grow up?

2011-02-07T02:32:00.000+05:30

A question that's very often thrown upfront on kids..."what do you want to do when you grow up?".

I had multiple answers to it, when the question was posed to me. I was labelled as the confused kid in the block. When I was a little girl, I wanted to become like my mommy who was a teacher. When I was about ten, I wanted to follow my Dad and become a speaker. Nopes..my dad was no speaker. He was into social and rural development. Well that's the impression that stuck to me when I saw him talking on the microphone in meetings...:)

As soon as I hit my teens...I wanted to become something big in life. I was not able to decipher what big meant to me. I completed my graduation in science. During my grad years, I was inclined to Mendel's Laws of Genetics. I wanted to get into genetic engineering. In a place as small as my hometown, there was hardly anybody who could guide me towards my new found ambition. I completed my graduation and went on to

do a course in programming. Nay...I was not at all a tech savvy person. I was possessed by the ghosts of independence. Thanks to my stars, I got into a job which was anything but programming. I got into the technical helpdesk for a famous company. I was doing ok not bad. I survived 2 and a half years without passing out in between.

I jumped into another company and tried my hand at improving quality of the tasks assigned to me.

I was lost in crunching data and analyzing the root cause of all failures. I was scared looking day and night at failed transactions..questioning myself...if I was on the road to become one. I jumped out again to a different boat which I had never sailed on. It was interesting at the start of the journey. But very soon, I got settled and thought that I would retire from here. It was about quality again but I was getting comfortable. Life has its own

plans, I had to leave the company to join another one. I am still working there managing people,processes and clients. It has been quite a roller coaster ride through out with lots of learning and life changing experiences in the process. The million dollar question is that do I enjoy it.....I am still searching for the answers...

My answer to the question that was posed when I was a kid is still unanswered. Let me grow up to figure out what I want to do out of my life :)

Has Humanity lost its essence ?

2011-01-29T04:09:00.000+05:30

It was a normal working day for me when I read a passing news that a person has been burnt alive as he was fighting against corruption. This happened in broad daylight. I was stuck to my seat. He was a stranger to me but my heart wrenched in pain. I am scared at the thought of bringing another life to a world that has been consumed by the demons of hatred, rage and selfishness.

People who are supposed to be the most beautiful creations of God are on the road to extinction. Is it so difficult not! to be devious and try to lead a simple life? The want of more is eating up our minds and leading us to commit things that are anything but human. A common scene these days is that a few auto rickshaw drivers in their urge to earn a few fast bucks tamper with the meter. The milkman adds water to try and sell more milk. The grocery guys add stuff to the lentils and rice in order to earn an extra penny. The hospitals try their best to make their money even when a person is not alive.

My brother posted on his Facebook wall the plight of a young deceased child’s parents who were trying to arrange money so that they could take the body of their beloved as the hospital, one of the best kind, was not releasing it. While I understand money is required to keep it in good shape, but will a few thousand rupees at this hour matter more to them than the parents who might have lost their walking stick in their old age. Who will take responsibility of them when they need help. Are the people in the hospital devoid of emotions or are they programmed robots?. Its reflects the bloody sad state of affairs in our world. Is there any corner left in the world that is unaffected by these unsavoury examples of inhuman behaviour?

These are some of the few events that I am aware of, ! but am sure there are many untold stories of despair and pain. Humanity is well defined here - "The three strengths associated with humanity are love, kindness, and social intelligence." Love has been transformed into hatred. Kindness is replaced by cruelty. Social Demons have taken over social intelligence.

Have we become slaves of the devil in us ? Will humanity be ever reborn or will it take another age for it to come back in its beautiful colors ? A question for ourselves to answer.

The Sun Shines On

2011-01-24T03:26:00.000+05:30

To stand up for herself or not was the question lingering over her mind. It was a sunny afternoon when Tisha

stormed out in anger out of the house not knowing what lies ahead. It was a happy marriage until Ketan wandered off in a territory that was beyond Tisha. She was solely dependent on Ketan for everything and anything. She had left her own identity in her entire journey. Her whole world loomed around him.

The clock has stopped her world. Her parents were in a far off land not knowing what was brewing in their daughter's life. She did not have an inkling of whose door to knock and where to find a shelter.

She was devastated that the man she thought would hold her hand till the end would leave her for the greener

pastures. Her faith in love and marriage was shaken to the hilt. She knew that life was never a bed of roses but to find thorns all along her way was breaking her from within.

She stood her ground knowing that it was over. Her heart and eyes used to well up just at the thought of the love that was lost for life. She was battling the worst all by herself. But as they say life has its own angels who stop by and help you cross over the bridges of despair.

Her angels started appearing and giving her signs that life is beyond us. Her first encounter was with Angel of Strength. She was sleeping one night and suddenly she felt a warm tug. Her eyes half sleepy saw her mother

whom she had lost last year. She got off the bed thinking that it was a dream. She saw her mom saying

"Always think of what you have and not what you don't have. You are my strong little girl. Go up and fight life". The thought stuck to her head. She raced back and forth in her mind thinking that it is so damn right.

She murmured to herself saying " Tisha, you are alive and are capable of taking care of yourself. Think of the people who are not as educated or lucky as you". It was a moment of truth for Tisha. She was already feeling better.

Her next leap of faith was when the Angel of Smile touched her in a very subtle way. Tisha as a girl was always bubbly and chirpy. In the race of time, the smiles were left behind. She was walking one day to the

grocery store near her hostel. She was buying some necessities when a small little girl standing nearby looked at her and gave an angelic smile. The smile stuck upon Tisha. She smiled back with all her heart after a very long time. Innocence emerges from the heart and spreads the radiance of smiles and laughters. Tisha has never stopped smiling ever since then.

Her final stop was with the Angel of Faith. It was at a holy place which was suggested by one of her friends. Her friend had told her that it was a place which was very peaceful. She was very apprehensive and yet decided to give it a try. Her overall faith in the Almighty was on a shaky ground. She walked into the place and decided to sit in a silent corner. It was indeed peaceful. A sudden calmness overpowered her and something told her that "Everything will be fine. Have faith my child."

Since then the power of faith has held her tight. The Sun shines on for her till this day.

Do we take time to see and accept the signs of hope and happiness that life gives us with....

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Smiles !!

Strangers...

2011-01-24T01:51:00.000+05:30

Thousands of emotions crossing over the mind. Its been ages since I penned down something. Was life so busy that I could not spare a line...I guess as usual, I wait till I fetch my inspiration to hit me and push me to write.

Life has been very kind so far. I watched a pretty interesting movie which made me reflect on the strangers in life and our relationships with them. Its pretty common for us to meet people who were complete strangers and yet

left an impressionable impact on our lives.

I had my share of some memorable encounters. A call from the unknown stranger who professed his unconditional love and never called back again knowing that I was happy where I belonged. I never got to know who was the person. But I'm sure the person doesn't have an idea that the call is etched forever in memories. There was a stranger turned friend who was there during all the lonely days to dry up the never ending tears. Life moves on and the friend has moved on for good. But I guess the memories of this stranger will always linger on.

The people who lost their lives in the road rampage near my place. I did not know them but the thought and sight hit me for life. An uncouth bus driver who did not even realize that there were people standing before ramping them over. They were innocent lives lost and their absence will always haunt their loved ones.

The rare sight of the smiling traffic police in the middle of the night showing respect and trust in letting me

pass by the police stop without checking for the level of alcohol in me. Guess there are lot of strangers

in life who are there in life either by design or co-incidence and each interaction leaves us with some

pleasant and some not so great memories.

Strangers for Life...I guess :)

The journey from hope to faith....

2010-05-12T00:12:00.000+05:30

After eons of time, I was sitting all by myself trying to contemplate on the journey so far in life. I was watching the idiot box but then there was this one dialogue that struck me, " we never give up hope". So true, hope is embedded in the DNA :) Hope translates into different things for various people. Hope for a better tomorrow, health, wealth , success against failures , life, death , healing..well the list can go on. Sometimes hope against hope is used as an understatement. The power of hope vs hope is immense. I'm sure there are tonnes of miracles which hope has woven in the lives of many a people.

The story of my journey from hope to faith has been exciting. Hope came into my life through a tiny channel of spiritual experience which I would have conveniently ignored had I not been in the shallows of life. There was a voice that rang in my head which said " Dear Child, Move on....Life is more than this...I'm there with you".

The flame of hope flickered in my life that day. My world had come crashing down with a broken relationship. I held myself responsible for what happened ignoring the fact that everything happens for a reason. I did not

leave any stone unturned to wallow in self pity. I was the poor little gurl dumped by the rich guy. That day

I stopped by to take a minute and reflect on the past. The past was not all of misery but a mixed bag of

amazing days and the not so good days. I awoke from the slumber of sadness and self pity. The divine voice

woke me up. I decided that I would not get into a self destructive mode.

HE was there with me. Hope took a concrete form that day. I hoped for a better tomorrow. I started focusing on things that were important. I used to drown myself in work. Set myself hard targets which I wanted to achieve. There were days when hope took a backseat but those were the days when Faith started treading into my life softly. Thanks to all the Almighty and the angels in form of strangers in my life who helped me in my transition from being hopeful to someone whose Faith would change the impossible to I'm Possible.

Faith along with Hope has helped me achieve the targets that I set for myself. While some were tangible targets, the most impactful were the intangible targets which I achieved. The whole journey which continues has changed me as a person as well. From the very dependent gal who could not cross the roads to an independent woman who has to cross roads every other day to ensure that she meets her goals. It also invoked the true sense of forgiveness in me. It taught me one of the greatest lessons in life which I will hold on till my last breath...Forgive and Accept Things as they are...Be Happy that the worse has not happened...True

While the heart tries to bog me down once a while to cry over spilled milk but I walk down to the path with unfettering Faith to embrace new situations and relationships. The faith that there are good things in store for me and that I have the best possible partner that I could ever dream of. A faith that few months down the line, I will be walking down the altar and all the dreams of the memorable wedding will be come true...Amen

Please deliver this to Mama in Heaven.

2010-05-06T03:30:00.001+05:30

This day as you look up on us from the realms of heaven,
With the childlike glares on the earth,
wondering do my kids miss me,
laughing at the moments when we are funny,
sporting a proud smile during our moments of glory,
shedding a tear when you see us in sorrow,
praying for us in our trying times,
singing for us during the lullaby times,
pushing us to fight out the odds,
believing in us that we can win,
reminding us to take the path that we believe is right,
standing for us during the struggles of life,
worrying for us when we get remorse,
pulling us up to walk the stony paths,
laughing with us on our silly jokes,
smiling at our crazy moments,
sharing and believing in our dreams,
thats you Mama......

There is not a moment that goes without you.
There is not a smile that is complete without thinking about you.
There is not a second where we do not feel the air of emptiness without you being by our side.
There is not a heart beat without missing you for life.

Mama....We miss you! Wish you were here to hear the poem.

Happy Mother's Day Ma!

Thanks for making us what we are today. Love you and miss you for life.

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Would love to gift my Mom the mug....wish I could...:(

Time and Pain....

2010-05-05T04:06:00.002+05:30

Ironical as it does sound....time and pain can be a lethal combination...:)

Time never comes back again yet the pain keeps coming back to haunt you. A bagful of sweet and bitter memories becomes a part of your existence. We lock it and throw the keys off into the sea vowing never to open the chest of treasured memories. But Time brings you back to the shores of the sea where you try searching for the keys to the memories.

The boats which brought you back from the deep storms of sea are pained to see you go back into the ruffled waters.The boats know that the keys are lost yet there is small dream deep down to unearth answers for the thousands of questions that linger in your mind.

Time and again, there is a pain that brings back the clocking memories of a time that passed by..........

IPL - Indian Political League

2010-04-19T00:35:00.001+05:30

The IPL mania has gripped India including me. I being a totally non-cricket conformist following the game is pretty surprising. Its got the entire nation glued to the idiot box. Its got our fairer sex move from the tear jerking dramas to the cricket. Well the whole thing started off from being a league championship to money pumping business.

The IPL impact is totally visible on me as an individual as well. Well I watch the series with a vengeance to ensure that the city which hurt me doesn't get to win. Aint I becoming too political about the whole series. Well yeah, but I don't mind it as long as my personal ego is being satisfied by the losing city. The game has made me realize that I actually have been christened as a true Bangalorean.

The game has also got our honorable politicians into the foray of cricket. The last thing that we expected was the money laundering come out rattling in the open. The skeletons of few maybe have been exposed. But I'm sure that there is more to the eye. The whole parliament is busy focusing on the IPL rather than solving the hard pressing issues in the country. The houses get adjourned over the minister who was mentoring the newly born team. There are strong people standing up against each other vowing to wash the dirty linen in the public. The amount of attention and money that goes into the IPL if used for a better cause would have definitely taken the country a step forward from the clutches of poverty for the downtrodden.

The question is that will this happen in any other country...???

It happens only in India...:)

Unknown...

2010-04-12T01:03:00.000+05:30

"Unknown"....many a times we get calls from this number....the reaction is obviously not happy at the first ring...we as humans tend to think a lot before acting on it. We potray different reactions depending on the caller..happy @ times...scared...fearful...angry...sad.

The question is whether the reactions are stemming from the unknown number that is flashing or is it the person on the other line who is generating these reactions. The outcomes are varied..while its the fear of the unknown that stirs us up and many a times its the unknown person who adds on more spice to the whole process.

Is there a prescription to cure this fear? I suppose there are answers to this. Many a times, the cure can from a spiritual place. I read somewhere that everything that happens is for a reason..the future to come will also have a reason. Well does it satisfy me? Not sure...how much it holds water in the mindless unknown thoughts running through my mind. The unknown future...or a known future..Should i be worrying for a future that is unknown..or just take each day as it comes. Taking each day as it comes..is what a majority of junta do...and i guess thats th way to go coz we dont screw up our today thinking about whats in store tomorrow.

I know that the various things running in my mind do not have an explanation...who am I truly...where am i heading to...am I doing what am supposed to...am i right/wrong...why do i sound like a bunch of muffled nerves..why am i different...am i a normal being or just someone who is not from this universe...:)

Questions n questions......

Back to my roots...

2010-04-09T04:15:00.003+05:30

Here...I am back to what I love doing..:) I hope to be more frequent with my writings rather the long bouts of absence. Life has zipped across with the speed I never expected it to..I was hoping that my sob stories would continue for some more time before I get into more relevant things. Nevertheless, life has changed for the good. There are a billion thoughts running across in my mind but will not be able to wobble out everything together...

More to pen in the coming days......:)

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai...

2009-12-27T23:47:00.003+05:30

While reflecting on the year that was....I guess the song is an apt dedication to this year. I hope after the lost battles, there will be some victorious pursuits as well. Kudos to me for managing to be sane after all the turmoil. I guess its good to pat pur own backs once a while. Its quite interesting that we humans have the best of traits where we fall down and get up till we are able to walk again...

Mindless Chatter...

2009-11-28T21:53:00.003+05:30

After a long time, I have come down to my native place for one of my childhood friends marriage. I met my school buddies after eons of time. It just seems like yesterday.
Though not much has changed here but you see the traces of modernization touching the town.

The first day went in chatting away to glory about the days that had passed by, our old so called
crushes, pranks, fun and the innocence thats missing in today's world. I was always the quiet one in the group. Though I have turned a new leaf over the years, surprisingly I was very quiet. I was wondering what was it that made me go quiet ignorant of the fact that I talk pretty much these days. I was the shy one in the group who was very conscious about everything starting from how i looked, talked ...etc. I was a late bloomer in terms of communication. I suddenly found myself back to square 1 after a long time. There were many things playing over my mind.
I wanted to shout out and tell that I'm not the shy Jane that they had known. I was just blank.
I am very happy for my fren who has met her soulmate after a long wait. I wish her the best of things in lives. I wanted to tell them that I really loved them and was always there for them. I want them to get all the happiness in the world. :)

In admist of all the fun & frolic, I was lost thinking about why did God have different plans for me. I had a lot of questions for HIM. I hope I get the answers. I ran into some uncomfortable
questions. Though we boast that we are racing towards a progressive society, there are still
gaps that might or might not be bridged.

I faced it with a smile...:) I gathered more courage to face up to the world and standing for myself...
Someday, I'm gonna come back more stronger and bigger for this place..................

Dear God,

2009-11-27T05:12:00.002+05:30

Dear God,

Thanks for the new day,
Thanks for being there for me always,
Thanks for the learnings that never cease to end,
Thanks for the all the happy and sad memories,
Thanks for the little storms in life,
Thanks for teaching me to sail through them safe,
Thanks for the lovely angels that are there for me,
Thanks for keeping the faith in me,
Thanks for making me your special child,
Thanks for all the strength that I gather for you,
Thanks for making me who I am...:)

You rock God!

Lonely Thoughts!

2009-11-26T17:33:00.000+05:30

She looked at the horizon,pondering if ever bygones can be bygones,
a life that was so full of laughter,is full of hushed miffs and tears,

a love that was the hustle bustle of life,has become memories lost in the lanes of darkness,
a friend who promised to walk with you in the journey of life,has left you withering in pain,

a hand that held you while crossing the hurdles of life,has left you on your own to jump the lines,
a shoulder that you used to rest on during moments of truth,has been replaced with the lonely walls of your home,

a smile which lit up your mornings,
has left you with smiles which shines with tears of despair,

a world that was woven around happiness,has become a shattered castle of never ending grief,
a faith that led you to tread the path of life,has become a fate full of thorns,

a life that was meaningful,has become a cross to bear......

Mister God....

2009-11-26T03:16:00.000+05:30

I had got this book named "Mister God, This is Anna" long back but never got a chance to read it. After getting back to home after work, I happened to pick this up and started reading the preface. I found it was a really cute and innocent book..:)

"The difference from a person and an angel is easy. Most of an angel is in the inside and most of a person is on the outside."

In the rat race of madness, somewhere I believe that lives & relationships have become so complicated. The joy of keeping things simple is so beautiful.

"You see, Fynn, Mister God is different from us because he can finish things and we can't. I can't finish loving you because I shall be dead millions of years before I can finish, but Mister God can finish loving you, and so it's not the same kind of love, is it?"

There are many things which stuck me and got me thinking. Innocence and love in its purest form which is pretty elusive these days.

Since past few weeks, my frens n family had been voicing out their concerns that I am becoming detached and extra-practical :). They are used to seeing a more bubbly and no sense chatter box in me. I did realize I have built the shell all over me which might not have been necessary.I hear them and laugh it off saying that its the best bet in today's world to ensure that you are not trampled time and again.

But after reading the book, I was thinking..what the heck..why should I loose my innocence...I'm the way I'am...

I was trying to become a human forgetting the angel was in me...

I get amazed at Mister God on the subtle messages that he conveys out of nowhere..:)

Wake Up Tia..:)

2009-10-12T01:18:00.002+05:30

Had been out to watch a youngie movie..:) atleast thats what I had thought initially. It was a nice movie compared to the ones that came along recently. There were some glimpses of myself that I could relate to in the movie. :) Today's independent woman...its definitely fun setting up your own pad, your independence, your decisions, your joys and your sorrows...I guess its just you and you in your world. Well do I enjoy it...yeah at times I do but there are times when I miss sharing a coffee with a special someone, chatting til wee hours of nite on crazy topics, going for a drive at midnite, cooking a midnite meal for smeone, fighting and pataoing after the fights, being missed by smeone....knowing that there is someone that believes in you...hmmm well a long list i guess..:p
In the humdrum of life, time just flies away waiting for that special person who mite be around but you have missed noticing....:) atleast thats wat was shown in d movie...
Hmmm I guess...I got to wake up now...lols.

Cheers to nari azaadi...:)

To Be or Not To Be..

2009-10-08T03:23:00.002+05:30

Its a vicious cycle when we need to manage and meet expectations of one and all. The expectations are easy, difficult and extremely complex many a times. While at work, its being in the center of triad where you need to manage your clients, management and team.

It does get challenging to ensure that all the parties are satisfied. There are days when everybody is happy and you get the cloud nine feeling.:)There are those sad days when you feel that irrespective of what you do, nobody will be satisfied.

I do understand that the crests and troughs are a part of the cycle. There are days when friends show a cold shoulder coz their expectations are not met.

There are times when I'm pushed to the wall. I guess everybody goes through the same phase. The water crosses the bridge in few situations. I need to take the call on whether to stand up for what is right always or ignore and forgive them for they know not what they are doing.

To Be or Not To Be...............

PS: This post is just a replication of my office blog, unfortunately cant link the two due to security restrictions..

Interview Bytes

2009-09-26T01:13:00.000+05:30

Its been a long time since I have ventured out on a recruitment drive. Thanks to the recession, our hiring has been null since past year.
After a gap of almost 1 year, I had been out for interviewing today. Its always good to meet people from different walks of life with various aspirations. There are moments of truth and fun in these interactions. Quite funnily, we generally have stereotyped the profiles that we should be hiring for the jobs. Lets meet themore familiar characters from :

The Cheerful Rookie : You will find a smile along with all the answers.Ready to take up anything that is offered with tonns of happiness. The smile will win the hearts of many a interviewers..:)

Creepers : The looks will clearly state that I want to be sitting in your seat. Very confident yet arrogant. Likes to believe that he can conquer the world at his pace. Growth at an express pace is what he demands.

Shy Me: Shy Me is the one who will be blushing at anything that you throw across as questions. Generally very sweet and shy characters who have not ventured out a lot in the corporate market.

Smarty: Smarties are generally who know what is the answer that we are looking for and can win over most of the interviewers. Sharp and Intelligent.

Know it All : Well, you don't have to pose the questions rather be ready for a long verbose conversation that will just linger on and on. Generally, they hit the bull's eye most of the times.

Beauties/Hunks without brains: They look great and are well dressed. Looking at them, you would be dying to hire them ( my colleague is extremely overjoyed when we have to interview pretty lassies :P). You just need to start talking to them to get to evaluate their competency.( No gender biases :))

Will be continued...need to get into a client call..:)

A New Flower...

2009-09-12T18:51:00.003+05:30

Thank you God for the new flower. Thank you for giving me all the wonderful goodies in the world, be it parents, friends, job, co-workers. Thank your for helping me rediscover myself.

A small note to the stranger who came from nowhere and showed me myself in the mirror. Thanks buddy.

Uncertainty clouded by hope..

2009-07-26T01:01:00.003+05:30

Life can suddenly become uncertain when you start believing things are getting cleared...
Guess thats what it is all about. There is never a moment when you can afford to relax.
We just need to keep running and running............with the clouds of hope in air...

Fiery Garlic Bread and Broken Bones !

2009-06-16T23:18:00.006+05:30

I felt like having a piece of garlic bread. I walked about 3 miles to the store and got them. I was gleeful at the fact that I am gonna have it as soon as I get back home. I walked back to office and finished few pending tasks bracing myself to get to home. With great pride, I picked up the shopping bags and went to the car. I chit chatted with the girl who comes to pick us up. There's no common point of discussion apart from weather and cars.:) We talked all the way till home. I bid quick good byes and raced to my room.

I took a quick shower and got ready to enjoy the yum bread. I kept the bread in the microwave. I followed the pack's instructions to the teeth. I set time for 5 mins. I got busy checking my emails. Phew ! Within two mins, the room was full of smoke. While I love the systems out here, this is something that is scary as within split seconds you would get the fire engines at your door. The alarms went on. I immediately called up the reception informing the incident. I was just hoping that the whole hotel's alarm wouldn't go off. Thankfully the guy came up fast and unlocked the windows. By that time, I was all smoky in anguish. :)

Well I decided not to touch the oven again. I decided to cook some stuff on the stove instead. I cut up the veggies and put oil in the pan. I wanted to saute the veggies. Darn ! The oil just spilled over my hand..:( I put some ice to the rescue and decided to retire for the night.

I went to get the clothes from the store room and slipped there to hurt my knee again. It looked like a spateful of events hitting me from nowhere. All hurt n bruised, I finally retired for the night with a hope that the roof doesnt fall off on me while sleeping..:)))

Hoop A La

2009-06-14T10:55:00.003+05:30

I had been to Navy Pier today. I had a great time there. I saw these cute kids trying out the hula hoops. I stood there watching the kids for some time. I couldn't stop myself from going and trying. It does look easy but its an art that needs to be mastered. I couldn't do it for nuts..:)

There's something that came to my mind when seeing this art. Life is so similar to the hula hoop.

We groove left and right based on the situations in life. There will be times when the hoop of life will fall off but we try to hold it up with the survival skills that are mastered with time. There are times of joy when the hoop swings to our tune. There are moments of despair when it tries to fall off. A short yet meaningful analogy that I could draw from the short fun session.

Well...I am going to buy a hula hoop and master the art..:) I wish that I imbibe the same art to mah life as well...

Cheers! Happy Hula Hooping!

People reading my blog....do try this out..its a lotta fun..

Expectations...:)

2009-06-11T22:07:00.002+05:30

Is it important in life to expect from life, your family, relationships? I would sound like a hypocrite if I say that am devoid of expectations. I try not to expect too much from life. Its so true that "Life is like a box of chocolates and you never know what you get".

They say that you will be happy when you don't expect anything out of life. I agree but as humans can we really attain that level of realization where things hardly matter. While I consciously try to avoid expecting things especially in relationships. I have been successful many a times but also have failed miserably in few instances.

It does matter in areas where you have given your cent percent yet the results doesn't translate to fit your requirements. There have been several instances at work when I would do X Y Z task thinking that its going to go through without any hiccups but then a surprise springs back which makes you realise that you are not there yet.

It can be with any relationships where you have talking, reacting in a certain manner, but then one fine day it changes. The other person reacts in a different manner and you are disturbed thinking that the person has changed. Well the reality is we have set expectations and programmed ourselves to think in a fashion that things will be constant.

But change is constant, all things have to undergo change. Change is important to help us grow as a person. Its a topic that has various shades to it. I decide to expect the goodies in life but yeah just sitting doing nothing about it won't help either. I will do my bit and leave the rest for life to unfold its mystery of expectations getting fulfilled. :)

There I go again...:)

Will the sun ever shine?

2009-06-11T01:27:00.003+05:30

Its been raining most of the days. The weather is cold every single day. The winds blow past
and change the direction of the clouds within a wink of an eye. Life also seems to be going in
the rainy direction.

The million dollar question is will the sun ever shine ? :)

Well lemme end on a positve note, I do believe that the sun will shine on me for the years to come....:)

The Drive

2009-06-09T01:28:00.003+05:30

She looked through the window at the horizon that was not visible. The car was steering past the roads through the curvy roads of the mountainside. The song that was playing in her mind was so apt for the drive that was going to end soon. "If I Should stay, I would only be in your way , So I'll go , But I know ,I'll think of you every step of the way And I... Will always Love you".

There were tonns of emotions running through her mind. She sat quiet wondering if it was a dream or was for real. A dream that was so close to her heart had come true but knowing that it will end soon was what stirred her up. But thats inevitable,a dream has to end for the greater good. She was going to try to live her life in these moments before her breath was taken away.

Smiling through the tears, she glanced at him to see the twinkle in his eyes.His face was shining as the star ignorant of the ramblings going through her mind. She could die a hundred deaths to see the smile on his face. He looked like a cherub full of love and grace. Humanity at its best.

They both were lost in the dreams of a dream that can only exist in a dream. The moment was like a bubble which was ready to burst any moment. The warmth of love, caring , understanding was being experienced in its totality. It brought tranquility with the wave of unrest taking her in their arms in the years to come.

All she wished was to take away all the pain suffered by him. She took the stairs in the clouds and walked upto heaven. GOD was taking a stroll in the highway called suffering. She said innocently to HIM, " Can I stay here in this highway instead can you let my friend leave and take the highway called "happiness"? HE replied " My child..go and tell your friend that"He is a shining star and the happiness truck is standing right outside his door. He needs to open his door and believe that life will be beautiful always".

They were soulmates separated by the stroke of destiny. Destiny brought them together for a moment and took them away in a split second. With a wish that the drive had never ended....

"Bittersweet Memories,

That is all I'm taking with me

So good-bye Please don't cry

We both know I'm not what you You need
I hope life treats you kind

And I hope you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness

But above all this I wish you love "

And I... Will always love you

Insomniac Life

2009-05-28T05:41:00.003+05:30

Its me back with conflicting emotions yet again. I have not been able to sleep well for the past few days. I spend a good no of hours tossing and turning over the bed in quest of sleep. Well, I cannot blame this loss on the erratic schedules that I keep nor on the mad race that I am in my sphere of work.
While I try to do a quick hypothesis on what could be the several causes of this new found shortcoming, I am unable to narrow down to a particular event, reason which can be held responsible.
There are thousands of thoughts crossing over my mind. I can visualize myself with the
comic kinda alerts all over my head in each passing minute. There are myriad of emotions that I am going through.
My ponderings and questions on life, death, love , relationships, sorrow, pain,loss of a loved one now seem to have become more deep rooted. While I do not want to sound a pessimist but
right now insomnia in its true sense has gripped me, my sleep and my life.

The Sprinkler Dance...

2009-05-19T04:31:00.004+05:30

I work in a lovely campus which spread across few acres of land with greenery everywhere. Its a lovely sight to walk across the campus during the early mornings. Greenery at its best. The sound of the chirping birds and croaking frogs makes you wonder if you are in some forest. :)

Well it was a normal day, when me and bossie were walking for dinner. We have a lot of options in the campus. So we decided to go to to have a proper south indian fare. As we were about to
enter the path, we see sprinklers going across the path. There's a quite a bit of hue and cry over the sprinklers as it is recycled water at its best. I went a step ahead and lo comes a stream of water in front of me. I move back to avoid getting drenched by the water. I again try to run across but get scared at the thought of taking a shower in the "water". I step back again.

A courageous man had stepped into the path and we see him dancing to the rhythm of the
sprinklers.:) Its not good to laugh at someone's plight but this was utterly unstoppable.

But at last, the man was able to win over the sprinklers by virtue of the "sprinkler dance".

Please deliver this to Mama in Heaven.

2009-05-10T23:36:00.010+05:30

This day as you look up on us from the realms of heaven,
With the childlike glares on the earth,
wondering do my kids miss me,
laughing at the moments when we are funny,
sporting a proud smile during our moments of glory,
shedding a tear when you see us in sorrow,
praying for us in our trying times,
singing for us during the lullaby times,
pushing us to fight out the odds,
believing in us that we can win,
reminding us to take the path that we believe is right,
standing for us during the struggles of life,
worrying for us when we get remorse,
pulling us up to walk the stony paths,
laughing with us on our silly jokes,
smiling at our crazy moments,
sharing and believing in our dreams,
dats you Mama......

There is not a moment that goes without you.
There is not a smile that is complete without thinking about you.
There is not a second where we do not feel the air of emptiness without you being by our side.
There is not a heart beat without missing you for life.

Mama....We miss you! Wish you were here to hear the poem.

Happy Mother's Day Ma!

Thanks for making us what we are today. Love you and miss you for life.

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Tears..

2009-05-07T07:35:00.003+05:30

I held a drop of tear in my hand,
I held it close to my heart,
I held my heart and cried out,
The skeletons of past are rambling in my soul,
Locked up in the shadows of past,
My heart wallows in pain,
Wishing moments could be relived again,
Love's labour lost in the sand dunes of despair

This is real..This is me..

2009-04-27T03:26:00.004+05:30

Listening to : This is real..This is me..

The song defines me in almost all ways.

The road ahead is not so easy yet I have to believe in myself and walk ahead.

The path is stormy yet I need to keep on going.

There are few roses planted by my friends along the road. :)

There are thorns clinging on to my feet, I bleed with pain.

I stop to take off the thorns.

I smile at life and its lessons.

I laugh at the ironies of life.

I am not scared of being "me".

I know I will shine through the shadows of darkness.

I know I will find my missing pieces in my journey ahead.

I know I will shine as a star for sure.

This is real..This is me.

Experiencing a luncheon with an accident...:)

2009-04-27T02:30:00.004+05:30

There is an email in my mailbox. I open the invite to see the lunch meeting with our CEO.
Yipee ...how excited I am...I run around the place smiling gloriously announcing my lunch date..:)
I wake up the next morning all excited to get to work at the earliest. I call up auto cabbie to ensure that I get there on time.
We are going in the ric with me gleefully happy. We are crossing the road.
Thud...lorry comes on crashing on the ric. I m stunned for a second. I realise that I am alive when people pull me out. I have no words to say just that I stood shivering for few minutes.
Then I realised that the driver and me were safe. I had to get going for my meeting.
I talk to the cabbie and then run across the road to get another ric. I sit in the ric and run towards mission luncheon..:)
I run across the campus to get to the building. I step in to see that hez gonna be late. I see
new faces around and wondering if I will get to see someone familiar. I meet this girl and we
start talking abt this new project. We then head off to start lunch as our CEO wll be late. We
go and sit on a table that is right in the middle. Both of us are amateurs in this project and wondering if anyone will ever join our table.

We sit and wait anxiously to see if anyone joins us. There is a group of 3 young men who join us at the table. All are quiet. I took the first step and started the converstation with all. All of us started talking about the project. The BIG BOSS steps in to the room. All are looking at him wondering which would be the lucky table. I tell my colleauge that you need not worry as he is going to join us.

He picks up the plate and walks towards our table. I cant hold my excitement but I need to behave like this matured middle manager. He joins our table and we all exchange smiles.
He starts talking and all of us are engrossed in the discussion. I make my point before him on
politics. We discuss abt the upcoming elections and the gaps that need to bridged for a better tomorrow. I could see red faces all around me :). All were eyeing us. Another senior manager came and interuppted him. She told him to speak a few words as all others were also waiting.
We then finished our lunch and sat to watch him address the crowd.
I was feeling damn lucky and on top of the world. :)
Well...you need to wish and believe for what you want to get in life...

Ponderings over a cuppa green tea..:)

2009-04-12T13:34:00.004+05:30

I was reading this book called, " I too had a love story". The different phases of a relationship is captured beautifully in this book. It ends on a sad note which is :(. Hope there is a new wave of happiness that comes into his life soon. "Tia prays for you".

I can relate that its not easy to move on but all say that you need to move on. Why is that important? Why cant people stay happy in the beautiful memories shared with somone special?

The pangs of loneliness will hit but then there are multiple ways to overcome them with a smile.

There are silent tears falling in remembrance, while walking the lonely roads. .............

Kash Yeh Pal

2009-03-31T17:51:00.003+05:30

Listening to : Kash Yeh Pal...by Jal

How I wish that I had a time machine to stop the moments that are passing by so quickly..

Journeys in Life..

2009-03-30T18:37:00.008+05:30

Sitting at the lounge in the airport and writing a post is quite a task...:)

Its interesting to watch people in their various colors n moods.

Some have a wide grin which reflects on their face and some are in reflective mood

Its a pity all the so called good looking hunks have boarded another flight.

Well someone has promised that I get to travel with Shahid Kapoor..lol

Well m confident that I will get to travel with some look alike if not him..:)

Life is so much like a journey where your destinations keep on changing

and you need to board different flights to reach the ultimate destination.

During the journey, we get to meet some angels who help us to give

the whole experience a meaning.

We meet some not so happy angels as well who are there in life for some

reason maybe a lesson to teach. We meet few smiling angels like me...:)

There are parent angels who help us during the flight. There are kiddo

angels who kinda play wth us and make the whole enviroment more merrier..:)

Well what a sight it would have been to see happy angels floating all over the place..

As I travel this last leg of a experiential journey, I am bombarded by thoughts some

happy some gloomy. I take all the happy thoughts and set forth on this most difficult

journey of life with the help of some sweet angels who need a mention and who try to

put in all their efforts in making me smile..:)

Well one of the angels needs a special mention as this angel has been very patient

enough to bear the on slaughter of my mood swings and scoldings..:) This one is for you

my friend..:)

"While I do not know where I want to head off in life, but this is to let you know that

I will be always there for you in smiles and tears. In moments of truth, when you need

me,I will be always there for you. Wish you all the happiness in the world and may all

your dreams come true".

I choose to take all the happy memories with me and cherish them forever. Wishing people

who are moving forward a happy and prosperous life.

If people could realise the fact that there is an angel in all of us, how happy a place this world
would have been....

Life n its twists n turns

2009-03-29T21:14:00.003+05:30

Life can be really queer at times,
Its just not a straight road.
There has to be twists and turns,
that cannot be missed.
Life is a mystery.
Life needs to be like the clear blue water
where people can see through and understand the situation.
Why do I have to make myself understood always?
Why cant people understand what i want in life ?
I am what I am....

Need a Genie..)

2009-03-25T06:05:00.002+05:30

Dia is playing in the beach trying to make a sandcastle with her little hands. Aman is running around trying to act macho by playing with the little men :).

Dia has a twinkle in her eyes and with a wide grin, she comes running to her mom saying " Mum, can we make our new house like this?" Aman comes around and echoes the same wish. This is the first time where the warriors have made peace and are coming up with a common request.

Aman joins back his gang and starts playing near the waves. Looking at that, Dia starts running towards him to join the fun. Aman shooes her away saying she is too small to be playing there.

Dia flashes her angelic smile and sweetly stutters to say " Bhai...please..little Dia wants to play too". Well no one can refuse to be a part of her cute strategies..:) Aman takes her by his lil hands and stands beside her while she is playing in the water.

The sun is setting in the horizon while mum dearie is savouring one of the best possible moments in life...seems like a dream though...

Better Off on my own..

2009-03-22T16:54:00.005+05:30

Thanks to "kiddo" for hearing me out...:) n introducing me to this song...

"Life may seem uncertain and difficult at times, but you need to keep the faith going and believe that what you desire will be all yours. As I say always whatever happens is for good and what is to come will be for good. So keep smiling n rocking."

"I tried to be perfectBut nothing was worth it

I don’t believe it makes me realI thought it’d be easy

But no one believes meI meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul

I’d say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I’m trying to let you know

That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty

My thoughts are so tempting

I don’t know how it got so bad

Sometimes it’s so crazy

That nothing can save me

But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul

I’d say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I’m trying to let you know

That I’m better off on my own

On my ownI tried to be perfect

It just wasn’t worth it

Nothing could ever be so wrong

It’s hard to believe me

It never gets easy

I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul

I’d say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I’m trying to let you know

That I’m better off on my own"

Defines me at the moment....

The Natty One..

2009-03-20T05:22:00.003+05:30

I saw her bouncing up the stairs with a naughty smile on her face. She jumped up within seconds and squeezed through the crowd. I see her walk around with an aura of haughtiness and confidence in the campus. We have a strong connect for sure. Whenever I walk into the coffee shop, she will just pop out of nowhere and say "hi". I have seen her grow up in the last few months into a beautiful grey eyed lassie. We are similar in quite a lot of ways..:) We are great at playing pranks at the unsuspecting innocent people. We love coffee at CCD. We love taking long walks in our beautiful lawns at work. D n me have named her as "Kantaben".

Presenting the famous natty cat " Kantaben" of our campus..:)

Last Journey...My old post...

2009-03-18T04:21:00.000+05:30

Saturday, June 12, 2004....

Today i came from office and though i straight go off to sleep....but today somehow i decided to watch the News,As usual i was flicking channels...and happened to watch CNN....The funeral of Former US President Ronald Reagan was being telecast live from California...The Last Journey was being shown as he was buried to rest..............This was one of the best funerals that i had come across.....Being a Christian myself...but funerals are different....here in India and US......It was the wish of Mr.Ronald Reagan that he should be laid to rest while the sun was setting....Let me start rite from start.......Something about Mr.Reagan...On February 6, 1911, Ronald Wilson Reagan was born to Nelle and John Reagan in Tampico, Illinois. He attended high school in nearby Dixon and then worked his way through Eureka College. There, he studied economics and sociology, played on the football team, and acted in school plays. Upon graduation, he became a radio sports announcer. A screen test in 1937 won him a contract in Hollywood. During the next two decades he appeared in 53 films. From his first marriage to actress Jane Wyman, he had two children, Maureen and Michael. Maureen passed away in 2001. In 1952 he married Nancy Davis, who was also an actress, and they had two children, Patricia Ann and Ronald Prescott. At the end of his two terms in office, Ronald Reagan viewed with satisfaction the achievements of his innovative program known as the Reagan Revolution, which aimed to reinvigorate the American people and reduce their reliance upon Government. He felt he had fulfilled his campaign pledge of 1980 to restore "the great, confident roar of American progress and growth and optimism." That was about the great man....One of the few facts Mr.Ronald Reagan and Lady Margaret Thatcher changed the face of global economy.The service at The National Cathedral was very good...and it was a moment of grief for everybody...especially his wife and children.A very touching scene was when Nancy his wife kissed the coffin before the funeral march andthe pain and emotion was very much visible .....When the body was bought to The Ronald Reagan Library California......and placedagainst the mountains and the lovely sunset.............The life of a great person set along with the sunset...Even though i was no one...and was watching the live telecast....Therez something that touched me....His wife was with him in each and every step...Thats the vow people take in presence of GOd..till death do us part......She was strong ...yet she brokedown when the American Flag was given to her...The last time when she kissed the coffin ...knowing it is the last time she was seeing her husband.......The love that they must have shared in the lifetime was very much evident...it seemed as if she was conversing with him..........When she broke down...her children came up and were behind her....The sound of the gunshots...and the beautiful music......one song that always touches one'ssoul..............Amazing Grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me,I once was lost but now am found ...........................A perfect funeral...........made me realise....that our last journey...and destination in life is going back to GOD....He is watching me...and is always there by my side.............My actions,my life should reflect him...this was taught to me by my parents always...Left me with a thought to ponder.................Thou comes from dust ....thou will go to dust..........................May GOD Bless his Soul.........Amen.Tia

"Nombre"

2009-03-17T06:18:00.000+05:30

Thanks to the recession, there has been a sudden surplus in the supply of meetings..:)

Its a Monday morning and there I go running across to start my day with a " short meeting", I call up my folks while walking up to my building trying to do my due dilligence to ensure that the data is ready.

Its 5:45 PM..phew..I cycle across with the hope of getting into the room before Bossie n Super Bossie. Well hard luck :(, I am the last one to gallop into the room.

I say my prayers :) before the meeting kick starts. The meeting starts with one of the chief commanders being asked to provide an update on his platoon.

Bang! I hear a gunshot of questions pointed at him on a point blankrange. The poor chief is giving all the possible explanations for the queries thrown at him.

I am looking at my lovely guess watch trying to make quick calculations on how long it will take us to wind up all the rounds of gunfire. I was waiting for the gun to be pointed at me as I had got
all the ammunition that was required to counterattack the gunshots. I had made my lil warmaps to ensure that I do not panic at these attacks.

6:30PM...

There are no signs of the Commander in Chief coming towards my zone...:) I am happy thinking that I can leave in a couple of minutes on the pretext of the "client call".

6:45 PM...

I am starting to get tired...now..

7:15 PM...

Chief steps in and asks me two questions which leads us into a whirlpool of queries. :) I in my usual self shoot back with all statistical facts.

7:20 PM...

God Bless the Soul who rescued us by virtue of the sales call...:) SB just jumps out and starts running..

Well I needed to run to get into the call with a great client...:) It was scheduled for 30 mins but we did a good job and wrapped up in 15 mins..

How I wish if there could be a restriction enforced on the no of hours spent in meetings especially here in our country where the value of time is always an undersestimation vis-vi-vis Uncle Sam's place..

Lawmakers are you listening to me...:) ???

Ramblings within...

2009-03-16T11:54:00.000+05:30

I pick up the pieces of me to put it back together to move ahead with a :)
I walk the roads as a looney traveller to a destination that is not visible yet there...
I pack the memoirs of life and a lovely childhood in a satin box..
The churner has been switched on by "HIM" yet again ...
A dish in making which is spicy yet needs to be projected as a sweet dish...:)
Quite mindless ramblings....

I believe I can fly...:)

2009-03-15T01:38:00.000+05:30

I believe I can fly at this moment....
The world is mine...
I choose to conquer it spreading smiles...:)
Life might be like a bungee jump ...
I choose to jump n conquer the phobias..:)
Life is full of smiles....
I choose to believe that the floodlights were on...:)
Life is a bag of goodies...
I choose to unfold the goodies one by one...:)

:)

2009-02-02T02:59:00.000+05:30

Lo, he treaded softly into her dreamworld to wake her up with a smile on his face..

She looked at him with questions in her eyes..

The beams of light coming from him touched her soul...

Her questions were answered..

She said a little prayer for the moment...

A moment that is just like a bubble in the air yet is so true and eternal...

Listening to :

I Knew I Loved You (Savage Garden)

Maybe it's intuition

But some things you just don't question

And there it goesI think I've found my best friend

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy

But I believeI knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason

Only this sense of completion

And in your eyesI see the missing link

I'm searching forI think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy

But I believeI knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you

I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

Smiles,

Tia..

Are we liberated yet?

2009-02-02T01:52:00.000+05:30

Another attack in the name of protection of culture..yet it speaks volumes on how gender biased the attackers were...the group of gals were traumatised by the group. I don't see where our culture speaks about targetting the fairer sex...yet they speak about Indian culture and heritage.
Its sad to see the hypocratic side of the so called protectors of our culture. I wonder if they even look into their own nests before taking up the task to clean up the society. There are two facets to our liberation...on one hand, we are surging ahead in the race of developing countries...trying to improve our GDP, at the hind side..we have shameful acts rock our society that just makes our head bow down with disgrace...
Are we truly liberated? Well thats a million dollar question...

Signing offf..Tia

Happiness

2009-01-19T14:38:00.000+05:30

Is happiness just an elusive commodity for people with all the luxuries in life or is it just the state of mind which is driven by moods , situations, people?
Well it can be very subjective and opinionated...:-)
Putting across my views...
I believe the onus lies on us..whether we choose to be or not to be..
Its very easy to write but when it comes to implementation phase..it can be difficult
I can speak from my experience that happiness just helps you achieve seemingly difficult things with great ease...
Happiness is a state of bliss which spreads around positive aura around us and our surroundings..
I believe that the road with thorns pricks you less if you have a smile within you....:-)

Will be continued..gotta go...
Smiles,
Tia

Love is patient..

2009-01-18T01:30:00.000+05:30

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

Lonely Planet..

2009-01-13T05:22:00.000+05:30

Lonely planet looks enticing from afar yet when you land it can be pretty disturbing...

Tia

Love..

2009-01-11T20:04:00.000+05:30

Love is like sand the more you try to catch it, the more it slips out of your hand...

Tia..

New Year Treats!

2009-01-09T13:40:00.000+05:30

Well hope that the new year is better than last one. Life has become so volatile that you never know whats in store the next moment. The latest scandal that has rocked is Satyam...values cannot be compromised with and thats what the downfall is all about. Just can't relate to the mind state of all the employees who joined with big hopes and dreams. Its gonna go down as one of the biggest frauds of India Inc. Do the other big players profit from this fiasco? Well there can be two things either they get the deals or the clients shift back jobs back onshore. The whole world is watching the unfolding events.
The Israel attack on Gaza strip claims to be a retaliation of the long drawn terrorist menance...Hope it ends soon...

Two major issues that hit us in the starting year..hope peace prevails...

Smiles, Tia

Back to blogging world

2009-01-09T06:08:00.000+05:30

Well hope to be regular this time onwards...

Tia